rast4man
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Sep 11, 2015
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- 57
First off, I'm a 39 y/o man and quite frankly, have had a really shitty year. Financially, emotionally and struggles with alcohol and drugs. I really had my shit together when I met the woman of my dreams and now, it is dangling by a thread...
So, her and I have been together a year and a half. We have had struggles and opposition since the beginning. I've never been married nor had kids and she has kids and has been married. I started getting depressed because of my financial situation and we started fighting constantly. We broke up for a month and got back tigether but sadly, started using together and it just destroyed us. We both know that was a large part of where we are now but now everything, literally, is all being brought up. We haven't had any affection in a week which I attributed to the stress levels and it just doesn't get better.
I try to make small talk and it's akward. I've tried to tell her how much I love her and how committed to changing things on my end but she just says she doesn't know if she wants to be in this relationship any more. That hurts. I guess I'm trying to convince myself and her that there is always a chance. She just can't get into any type of positive mood. She tells me she loves me and will kiss me goodbye on occasion but damn do I feel alone.
I get to talk to a counselor tomorrow to start a plan on what I need to do in order to find my happiness and figure out what needs changing. She is seeing someone as well tomorrow so who knows what will happen. Right now it just sucks. I love her and her son that lives with us part time and I really want her in my life. I just don't know what to do...any ideas?
So, her and I have been together a year and a half. We have had struggles and opposition since the beginning. I've never been married nor had kids and she has kids and has been married. I started getting depressed because of my financial situation and we started fighting constantly. We broke up for a month and got back tigether but sadly, started using together and it just destroyed us. We both know that was a large part of where we are now but now everything, literally, is all being brought up. We haven't had any affection in a week which I attributed to the stress levels and it just doesn't get better.
I try to make small talk and it's akward. I've tried to tell her how much I love her and how committed to changing things on my end but she just says she doesn't know if she wants to be in this relationship any more. That hurts. I guess I'm trying to convince myself and her that there is always a chance. She just can't get into any type of positive mood. She tells me she loves me and will kiss me goodbye on occasion but damn do I feel alone.
I get to talk to a counselor tomorrow to start a plan on what I need to do in order to find my happiness and figure out what needs changing. She is seeing someone as well tomorrow so who knows what will happen. Right now it just sucks. I love her and her son that lives with us part time and I really want her in my life. I just don't know what to do...any ideas?