Budal202
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- Nov 13, 2015
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Guys, if you want to know about my story you can read this thread: http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...insomnia-low-libido-and-premature-ejaculation
I've been fighting against this " LTC " that began four months ago after I used 6 pills in one night months ago . Two days later I had a panic attack, but I tried to forget all this, at the time I hadn't researched anything in bluelight, and eventually thought it was getting better. But my body didn't. I'm having these fucking symptoms that do not let me forget this shit for a minute. It started three months ago with insomnia, waking up several times during the night with pounding heart, strong pulsation in the head and after that couldn't sleep again. along with fast heartbeat during the day in a few days , strong pulsation in the head, hand tremors , panic and anxiety and depression. I started having insomnia along with anxiety, rapid heartbeat and depression. 1 month ago things started to get ugly .
Hand shaking almost 24/7, but is not like parkinson shaking, it's like the shaking you have when you're afraid, problem is that happen even when i'm not worried. When i go to sleep i feel my pulsation in my head. Cant medidate cuz i keep feeling my pulsation. Sometimes is so strong that it moves my head.
During the day i feel like i'm a little doped and dizzy. You know when you are looking at something, but not really looking, with a distante tought? I can't explain. i feel this during the whole day, except when i'm having a conversation with someone.
But when i'm talking to people i have difficult to express, i dont feel like laughing, when i do is forced, i get no expression.
I'm having blurred vision, and in a different contrast. I see many floaters , and sometimes , I see small bright lights, usually when lower my head, like shooting stars .
Feeling tired, low libido.
Having difficult paying attention to what people say, when i'm staring at someone in an enclosure the place starts to get dark.
I'm having these super real dream. Every time I start to fall asleep , automatically go into a real dream (usually a nightmare ) and then i immediately wake up scared. My neurologist prescribed xanax me to sleep, but these dreams got worse and i keep waking up a lot of times, even with fucking xanax. Ok, i took it just 2 nights, i don't know if it's going to get better with time but i'm afraid because of the nightmares.
I took like 26 pills of E in my life, never tested anything but i'm pretty sure it was ecstasy almost 100% of the time. I just want to know what could be happening to me, what kind of neurons may have been affected / destroyed and are causing it, and if I could have any connection to Parkinson . Anyone else had similar symptoms ?
I can't take this shit anymore.
I've been fighting against this " LTC " that began four months ago after I used 6 pills in one night months ago . Two days later I had a panic attack, but I tried to forget all this, at the time I hadn't researched anything in bluelight, and eventually thought it was getting better. But my body didn't. I'm having these fucking symptoms that do not let me forget this shit for a minute. It started three months ago with insomnia, waking up several times during the night with pounding heart, strong pulsation in the head and after that couldn't sleep again. along with fast heartbeat during the day in a few days , strong pulsation in the head, hand tremors , panic and anxiety and depression. I started having insomnia along with anxiety, rapid heartbeat and depression. 1 month ago things started to get ugly .
Hand shaking almost 24/7, but is not like parkinson shaking, it's like the shaking you have when you're afraid, problem is that happen even when i'm not worried. When i go to sleep i feel my pulsation in my head. Cant medidate cuz i keep feeling my pulsation. Sometimes is so strong that it moves my head.
During the day i feel like i'm a little doped and dizzy. You know when you are looking at something, but not really looking, with a distante tought? I can't explain. i feel this during the whole day, except when i'm having a conversation with someone.
But when i'm talking to people i have difficult to express, i dont feel like laughing, when i do is forced, i get no expression.
I'm having blurred vision, and in a different contrast. I see many floaters , and sometimes , I see small bright lights, usually when lower my head, like shooting stars .
Feeling tired, low libido.
Having difficult paying attention to what people say, when i'm staring at someone in an enclosure the place starts to get dark.
I'm having these super real dream. Every time I start to fall asleep , automatically go into a real dream (usually a nightmare ) and then i immediately wake up scared. My neurologist prescribed xanax me to sleep, but these dreams got worse and i keep waking up a lot of times, even with fucking xanax. Ok, i took it just 2 nights, i don't know if it's going to get better with time but i'm afraid because of the nightmares.
I took like 26 pills of E in my life, never tested anything but i'm pretty sure it was ecstasy almost 100% of the time. I just want to know what could be happening to me, what kind of neurons may have been affected / destroyed and are causing it, and if I could have any connection to Parkinson . Anyone else had similar symptoms ?
I can't take this shit anymore.
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