Hey this is my very first post ever. And im not sure if this is the right place or appropriate for this, so sorry in advance If I messed up. I did a lot of searches on this before I posted and never really found what I was looking for, if there even is an answer for me.
But anyway, ive been an off and on addict for about five years, had about a year of genuine twelve step sobriety, but the rest of my clean times were just jail terms.
So I got out and just relapsed again a few months ago, and you know the story it got bad again quick, and for once I wasn't on probation nor did I have any warrants out for me, so I tried methadone this time. Started on 30mg and now on 50. I kept using at first cause it wasn't holding me, but I kept using and now I can't tell if the dose isn't holding me or if I just keep pushing my tolerance even higher by doing both.
Every morning after dosing I feel decent, but by the time I get off work I start feeling bad. Not necessarily physical withdrawals but I definitely dont feel normal, so I do some dope, sleep, then wake up in full blown withdrawal and race to the clinic to get well.
So I want to hear from anyone who is on mmt or have been on it before and did it successfully. I'm not worried about tapering off or any of that yet, I just want to go a full week without using or feeling like I have to use to make it through the day. Are there vitamins or supplements, should I change my diet, should I exercise? I have an apartment with my girlfriend and we have a newborn, and I work during the day, so it's not like I have free time to just sit around and think about getting high, I know it's not just a mental thing.
I should add that I install granite for a living, so maybe the hard work is pushing it through my body faster? And my clinic caps the dose at 80 mgs so I'm worried about just raising the dose again and again and then being stuck but still not feeling better.
But anyway, ive been an off and on addict for about five years, had about a year of genuine twelve step sobriety, but the rest of my clean times were just jail terms.
So I got out and just relapsed again a few months ago, and you know the story it got bad again quick, and for once I wasn't on probation nor did I have any warrants out for me, so I tried methadone this time. Started on 30mg and now on 50. I kept using at first cause it wasn't holding me, but I kept using and now I can't tell if the dose isn't holding me or if I just keep pushing my tolerance even higher by doing both.
Every morning after dosing I feel decent, but by the time I get off work I start feeling bad. Not necessarily physical withdrawals but I definitely dont feel normal, so I do some dope, sleep, then wake up in full blown withdrawal and race to the clinic to get well.
So I want to hear from anyone who is on mmt or have been on it before and did it successfully. I'm not worried about tapering off or any of that yet, I just want to go a full week without using or feeling like I have to use to make it through the day. Are there vitamins or supplements, should I change my diet, should I exercise? I have an apartment with my girlfriend and we have a newborn, and I work during the day, so it's not like I have free time to just sit around and think about getting high, I know it's not just a mental thing.
I should add that I install granite for a living, so maybe the hard work is pushing it through my body faster? And my clinic caps the dose at 80 mgs so I'm worried about just raising the dose again and again and then being stuck but still not feeling better.