SlipperyEel
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I took acid last night, and I was very much conflicted. It was the 4th time I have taken LSD in my life. My trips have always been very positive and have had a profound effect on my personality, tastes, and interests.
But, last night, I began to notice how there is a trend of effects that take place when I drop. I found myself thinking "this again" and "I've been here before", meaning I've had the sensations and experiences before while tripping previously, albeit there were some new visuals and sensations, but ultimately i became very aware that I had ingested a chemical and that these were all drug-induced hallucinations. And I craved reality, because it all felt like there was an illusion in front of my suddenly, when all along I had been convinced of a deeper level of understanding with lsd, and that I could detect metaphysical energy and pick up on things normally out of reach, now it all seems like a product of the drug, a deception.
I have a blast on lsd. I handle it very well and have lots of fun with it, but, I took all of my hits and flushed them down the toilet during the trip. Along with all of my beer and weed. I plan to smash and throw away my paraphernalia and scale as well.
I'm so conflicted because I have so much fun with acid, but I found myself thinking "this ain't me". And I began to think about my dad and how he tried so hard to put me in a good direction in life and I'm doing OK I guess but I felt ashamed and like I disappointed him.
I'm very confused.
I am dating a girl and I introduced her to acid but I only gave her one hit as a soft introduction and she didn't really like it because with one hit there weren't really visuals of any significant nature and it mostly just made her restless and made her thoughts run a lot... I still have the desire to have her try more hits so she can understand the experience that I have spoken of, but then I also think about what I learned last night and how it is just a drug and how it has controlled my personality so much and I don't want to base the depth of my gf and I's connection on whether she has or hasn't done acid with me.
I've done acid with friends in the past who I don't talk to anymore so I know that it is just a drug and not glue of any significance, but it deceptively seems like it may create a deeper connection and understanding...
I'm just ranting at this point. Looking for some feedback and advice please. Thank you.
But, last night, I began to notice how there is a trend of effects that take place when I drop. I found myself thinking "this again" and "I've been here before", meaning I've had the sensations and experiences before while tripping previously, albeit there were some new visuals and sensations, but ultimately i became very aware that I had ingested a chemical and that these were all drug-induced hallucinations. And I craved reality, because it all felt like there was an illusion in front of my suddenly, when all along I had been convinced of a deeper level of understanding with lsd, and that I could detect metaphysical energy and pick up on things normally out of reach, now it all seems like a product of the drug, a deception.
I have a blast on lsd. I handle it very well and have lots of fun with it, but, I took all of my hits and flushed them down the toilet during the trip. Along with all of my beer and weed. I plan to smash and throw away my paraphernalia and scale as well.
I'm so conflicted because I have so much fun with acid, but I found myself thinking "this ain't me". And I began to think about my dad and how he tried so hard to put me in a good direction in life and I'm doing OK I guess but I felt ashamed and like I disappointed him.
I'm very confused.
I am dating a girl and I introduced her to acid but I only gave her one hit as a soft introduction and she didn't really like it because with one hit there weren't really visuals of any significant nature and it mostly just made her restless and made her thoughts run a lot... I still have the desire to have her try more hits so she can understand the experience that I have spoken of, but then I also think about what I learned last night and how it is just a drug and how it has controlled my personality so much and I don't want to base the depth of my gf and I's connection on whether she has or hasn't done acid with me.
I've done acid with friends in the past who I don't talk to anymore so I know that it is just a drug and not glue of any significance, but it deceptively seems like it may create a deeper connection and understanding...
I'm just ranting at this point. Looking for some feedback and advice please. Thank you.