Ganj
Bluelighter
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- Dec 2, 2013
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First, as its very relevant I have ADD which results in me dozing off into very long thought trains completely unintentionally (Although completely linear and logical ones while sober). It has no real effect on my life and it has its silver linings. I am also 16.
When I am either extremely stoned or tripping and enter these trains, they tend to go deeper and way less linear which I'm guessing is expected. Something I have caught myself doing only a few times is following worryingly obscene thought trains that are completely mad.
Although I cannot give direct examples they link concepts and objects with literally no real correlation. I tend to only go through 4-5 different links but the scary part is I rapidly go through these random things with such speed and confidence when I first caught myself doing it I thought I had gone through this mad link of completely unrelated things for years and even did it when I am sober and just never caught myself doing it in my entire life. This was of course a terrifying thought that genuinely questioned my sanity which I found very hard to handle while miles from sobriety. I know I have never done it sober but I am guessing I had actually done it quite a few times while on drugs before actually catching myself doing it.
Giving an example in words would not do a description justice, the only clarification I can make is that the things I link are not objects or places that physically exist but nouns.
This is honestly making me a little worried, I have never heard of anything like this before. The truely scary part about it is not the fact that it happens but how normal it seems as I do it and how well I know the links. Its almost as if its a topic such as standard grade physics that I'm going over in my head but all the words have been replaced with random nouns.
My ADD representatives itself as a very childish side of me when I am tripping that feels very prominent when this happens. If its in anyway relevant on a very small proportion of the times I have tripped or gotten extremely stoned this childish aspect of me has pretty much taken over in the way I speak and react and I have made a complete fool of myself.
Any insight would be really nice! If I found this happening more than very infrequently it would completely put me off these things.
When I am either extremely stoned or tripping and enter these trains, they tend to go deeper and way less linear which I'm guessing is expected. Something I have caught myself doing only a few times is following worryingly obscene thought trains that are completely mad.
Although I cannot give direct examples they link concepts and objects with literally no real correlation. I tend to only go through 4-5 different links but the scary part is I rapidly go through these random things with such speed and confidence when I first caught myself doing it I thought I had gone through this mad link of completely unrelated things for years and even did it when I am sober and just never caught myself doing it in my entire life. This was of course a terrifying thought that genuinely questioned my sanity which I found very hard to handle while miles from sobriety. I know I have never done it sober but I am guessing I had actually done it quite a few times while on drugs before actually catching myself doing it.
Giving an example in words would not do a description justice, the only clarification I can make is that the things I link are not objects or places that physically exist but nouns.
This is honestly making me a little worried, I have never heard of anything like this before. The truely scary part about it is not the fact that it happens but how normal it seems as I do it and how well I know the links. Its almost as if its a topic such as standard grade physics that I'm going over in my head but all the words have been replaced with random nouns.
My ADD representatives itself as a very childish side of me when I am tripping that feels very prominent when this happens. If its in anyway relevant on a very small proportion of the times I have tripped or gotten extremely stoned this childish aspect of me has pretty much taken over in the way I speak and react and I have made a complete fool of myself.
Any insight would be really nice! If I found this happening more than very infrequently it would completely put me off these things.