Hi guys , I was given Invega Sustenna for 8 months and have been off it for ten months , I have gained 35 kg in a year am obese I saw a top endocrinologist today , hormone doctor , and I have thyroid problems for life, I have sexual dysfunction in that I hardly produce any siemen at all , have no desire , libido , pleasure , my growth hormone is also unbelievably low so its quasi impossible for me to grow muscle or lose weight because of the thyroid , I am at wits end , I was a bodybuilder for 9 years and was fully chiseled and athletic and had a very strong libido , I have lost all interest in living and , you cant really say it without sounding melodramatic , i have lost hope according to common knowledge by 300 days or 6 half lives the drug left in your body which was 100 mg shots they were giving me , is roughly 1 to 3 percent , negligible , yet i havent greatly improved it has ruined me , i have such sadness its undescribable i cant feel anything but pain , i continue to work and study , force myself too , but i dont want to live , if anybody can bring light to the situation , tell me why it is i have the testosterone of and old man , and what may be done about it , id appreciate it , the doctor says nothing can be done about it and that if i do start testosterone shots it will shrinks my gonads and ill stop producing it naturally at all , all other kind of side effects are there with other drugs so i am screwed , if anyone can think of a reason to live , let me know , because other than not wanting to hurt my family , im stumped