Stoned Immaculate
Bluelighter
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- Mar 1, 2010
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While I'm not a diagnosed CP sufferer, I do understand chronically having pain. I'm 23 and am currently at the halfway mark healing from an L4/L5 discectomy in February. I injured myself at work in Dec. 2011 and continued to work on it and re-injure myself twice more until Nov.2012. Aside from the obvious pain of 3 protruding discs going inwards towards my spinal cord, I was also dealing with the pinched sciatic nerve. I decided to seek help after several months of my leg becoming more numb than the month before.
My emotions are mixed about my results post surgery. I can definitely say its an improvement, maybe 40-50% in pain and about 30-40% in numbness. But, the pain is still there. The surgeon said it can be about a year until I'm at my "healed" point, but after viewing my post-surgery MRI results, he stated that my L5/S1 disc would inevitably be removed along with a fusion "in my life-time". This devastates me. I'd hate to sound like a whiner, but I just do not want to deal with how I felt after surgery again. It was some of the worst pain I've been in my life all without using Rx drugs. I have an extremely sensitive stomach and after not being able to hold food down almost a week after surgery and what seemed to be a small overdose (ended up getting sick and passing out on the bathroom floor after upping my dosage 2x for relief) I decided to forgo meds and rode the rest of that bitch out the following 2 months.
This all took me from my dream school, it's completely changed my personality, and my family can't stand to be around me anymore because of the way I've become. I just wish I was normal. My old work (they fired me while I was recovering from surgery and yes I have a lawyer) takes no responsibility for this and workers comp denies me because of this. I'm so completely miserable and fed up with all of it. I hate my body for betraying me like this.
My emotions are mixed about my results post surgery. I can definitely say its an improvement, maybe 40-50% in pain and about 30-40% in numbness. But, the pain is still there. The surgeon said it can be about a year until I'm at my "healed" point, but after viewing my post-surgery MRI results, he stated that my L5/S1 disc would inevitably be removed along with a fusion "in my life-time". This devastates me. I'd hate to sound like a whiner, but I just do not want to deal with how I felt after surgery again. It was some of the worst pain I've been in my life all without using Rx drugs. I have an extremely sensitive stomach and after not being able to hold food down almost a week after surgery and what seemed to be a small overdose (ended up getting sick and passing out on the bathroom floor after upping my dosage 2x for relief) I decided to forgo meds and rode the rest of that bitch out the following 2 months.
This all took me from my dream school, it's completely changed my personality, and my family can't stand to be around me anymore because of the way I've become. I just wish I was normal. My old work (they fired me while I was recovering from surgery and yes I have a lawyer) takes no responsibility for this and workers comp denies me because of this. I'm so completely miserable and fed up with all of it. I hate my body for betraying me like this.