Goodbye- zephyr is telling the truth, even if you make it look like an accident, people will know. When those who love you (and no matter who we are, there are people that love us, no matter what we think) think about what happened to you, what you did to yourself, even if they are convinced that it is/was truly and accident, they will want to know why. Not knowing leads us (those left behind) to wonder what we did wrong. How we could have screwed up so badly. Often times is leaves all the wrong people feeling responsible, like a kid that didn't have the power to help.
If you do want to do this, if you really feel there is no going back up the road you traveled down for 1 year, let someone know why. You can talk to the strangers here. You could talk to a stranger in the street, you could even talk to a person you love. But please, please, please talk to someone about your choice.
My son's father killed himself last year after seeing my son for the first time in years. My son quickly spiraled, he thought his father killed himself to get away from my son! Don't do that to those that love you. Don't leave them wishing they could just know why!
Your life is your decision, you get to control it as much as the rest of us. Other people's lives, their mental health, their hearts and heads- that is not yours to play with. If you decide to move on, let them know why so they can to!