Echoing Whispers
Greenlighter
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- Oct 15, 2014
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Hey. I have been getting negative effects off cannabis use for roughly 2 years (began minimizing consumption this year). Sometimes I'd smoke and I'd be alright while other times pretty bad, so I figured it was just a case of set & setting, as I'd had no problems previously (for almost 4 years).
One night I got back from a rave and took a few tokes whilst on a comedown (MDMA) - and immediately went into stupor, projecting helplessness, submissiveness, fear, paranoia, mute, very anxious, irrational behavior... Panic, I guess, inside I feel terror. This type of experience has happened several times (it took me ages to cut down, didn't want to accept not being able to smoke up).
I'm a-lot more prone to it in a setting with strangers (social anxiety just amplifies, so much background chatter it's ridiculous, and almost impossible to focus externally, painful to deal with even when I'm smoking alone, but much more manageable); the effects are characterized by racing negative thoughts, anxiety, and insomnia (this is also the more common experience, not as severe as what I described above).
It's like... Spiraling downwards in pain (chaotic, negative 'haunting' thoughts) for hours until being completely burnt out (different degrees of intensity on different settings, sometimes it's unmanageable for the whole duration, and I'd basically lay on the bed for over 5 hours as it beats me down till I'm fried). Yet, I actually sort of like the effect, in a weird, fucked up way so I do smoke up alone on occasion. I'm not sure, though, at the same time, if I should really be smoking anymore. I'm more cautious now and stopped pushing it a year ago.
I've also had vivid visual hallucinations 3 times at unusual moments in my life (once a few hours after smoking up laying on the bed, another as soon as I woke having smoked up the last night, and the other right after waking up from rolling and smoking from the previous night) as well as auditory hallucinations of a sinister, religious nature on weed (one of my first panic attacks, at like 14 - over 6 years ago) and even sober once or twice.
Asking for advice please, anyone with similar experiences or any way to decrease the degree of anxiety?
Much appreciated.
One night I got back from a rave and took a few tokes whilst on a comedown (MDMA) - and immediately went into stupor, projecting helplessness, submissiveness, fear, paranoia, mute, very anxious, irrational behavior... Panic, I guess, inside I feel terror. This type of experience has happened several times (it took me ages to cut down, didn't want to accept not being able to smoke up).
I'm a-lot more prone to it in a setting with strangers (social anxiety just amplifies, so much background chatter it's ridiculous, and almost impossible to focus externally, painful to deal with even when I'm smoking alone, but much more manageable); the effects are characterized by racing negative thoughts, anxiety, and insomnia (this is also the more common experience, not as severe as what I described above).
It's like... Spiraling downwards in pain (chaotic, negative 'haunting' thoughts) for hours until being completely burnt out (different degrees of intensity on different settings, sometimes it's unmanageable for the whole duration, and I'd basically lay on the bed for over 5 hours as it beats me down till I'm fried). Yet, I actually sort of like the effect, in a weird, fucked up way so I do smoke up alone on occasion. I'm not sure, though, at the same time, if I should really be smoking anymore. I'm more cautious now and stopped pushing it a year ago.
I've also had vivid visual hallucinations 3 times at unusual moments in my life (once a few hours after smoking up laying on the bed, another as soon as I woke having smoked up the last night, and the other right after waking up from rolling and smoking from the previous night) as well as auditory hallucinations of a sinister, religious nature on weed (one of my first panic attacks, at like 14 - over 6 years ago) and even sober once or twice.
Asking for advice please, anyone with similar experiences or any way to decrease the degree of anxiety?
Much appreciated.
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