Also this is bizarre but I have to comment on it.
I read a paper or article at some point of a vicious klu-klux-clan member who lost his hatred after one dose of MDMA.
This last period of time I've had this burning hatred against a demographic of people;
Now I've dosed meth/amph before and not had this effect, so it's obviously a dual affect of the drug with a specific cognitive state (see blog),
But it's so bizarre.
The uplifting effect of a nice solid dose of amphetamine, just made me feel so much better about myself, more positive - less inferior really I suppose and thus less hateful toward those people;
And so much of that hatred just lifted off my shoulders.
Maybe when the amph is cleared it will reverse but at this moment, I feel more emotionally "free" than I have in the longest damn time - just unburdened by that furious animosity.