Let me start by saying.... first time i actually wanted to try getting banged in the ass by a guy ( first gay thought maybe?) was 2011 after smoking this weed i had.. this batch made me horny. ended up asking my gay friend to fuck me in the ass i dont remember much idk why ( o ya the weed lmao ) . second time 11 months or so later he fucked me while i was standing bending in on bathroom stall ( fucked in public community pool washroom lol).. i remember this and well not gonna lie felt good i really enjoyed it but it stopped after that but i did find a girl a few weeks later lol. Now 2018.,...
i got put on vyvanse a stim.. i didnt realize it just happened.. but i became compulsive masturbator.. and yes i explorered all kinds of porn all btw.. i love taking tons of vyvanse and masturbating all day it got to point where these kinky fantasies has me making it reality like i keep doing it ughh. I Am now a slave an have a master. technically cant own a human right? but at same time he does. he has my number.. my parents number and knows where i live.. it was part of agreement and in return he gets me high on meth then ties me up legs hands whole body. an does whatever he wants. i get turned on typing this stuff too. made 6 month deal if i fuck up and do as said he can show up my place and expose me whatever calls parents says im gay.. life = reuined so i am owned its just hot lol. It d0es turn me on he uses ton of lube and i always make sure i for sure know a condom is used during so i dont think im tripping there an im being smart.
hes actually really nice an caring which seems to be hard to find wit gay guys and sex.. they will just do whatever not ask first etc. but hes actually pleasant an very sweet while still treating me like a slave. but genuine guy/
i just smoked so ya.. whenever i smoke specially meth and pop vyvanse i start craving the gay fantasies.. does this mean im bi? Or medicine /. drug is tricking me? OR is it actually making me be cool wit what im doing cause before i feeeel guilty cause of how i was raised / morals? Plus middleast that religion yep. they kill u for this so i cant tell anyone ): forbidden in my religion uggh.
now... i believe spectrum scale could be 100% the real fact.. everyone has to have some gay in them? id say im 6-7 MAX on scale the rest of me is gay as hell haha but 6-7 so im kinda in middle. it seems. now attraction wise id take a girl any day.. i get butterflies wit girls real atraction. idk maybe i low key am attracted to guys just dont realize it? or more me just liking gay sex? or i do some what attracted to guys?
i got put on vyvanse a stim.. i didnt realize it just happened.. but i became compulsive masturbator.. and yes i explorered all kinds of porn all btw.. i love taking tons of vyvanse and masturbating all day it got to point where these kinky fantasies has me making it reality like i keep doing it ughh. I Am now a slave an have a master. technically cant own a human right? but at same time he does. he has my number.. my parents number and knows where i live.. it was part of agreement and in return he gets me high on meth then ties me up legs hands whole body. an does whatever he wants. i get turned on typing this stuff too. made 6 month deal if i fuck up and do as said he can show up my place and expose me whatever calls parents says im gay.. life = reuined so i am owned its just hot lol. It d0es turn me on he uses ton of lube and i always make sure i for sure know a condom is used during so i dont think im tripping there an im being smart.
hes actually really nice an caring which seems to be hard to find wit gay guys and sex.. they will just do whatever not ask first etc. but hes actually pleasant an very sweet while still treating me like a slave. but genuine guy/
i just smoked so ya.. whenever i smoke specially meth and pop vyvanse i start craving the gay fantasies.. does this mean im bi? Or medicine /. drug is tricking me? OR is it actually making me be cool wit what im doing cause before i feeeel guilty cause of how i was raised / morals? Plus middleast that religion yep. they kill u for this so i cant tell anyone ): forbidden in my religion uggh.
now... i believe spectrum scale could be 100% the real fact.. everyone has to have some gay in them? id say im 6-7 MAX on scale the rest of me is gay as hell haha but 6-7 so im kinda in middle. it seems. now attraction wise id take a girl any day.. i get butterflies wit girls real atraction. idk maybe i low key am attracted to guys just dont realize it? or more me just liking gay sex? or i do some what attracted to guys?