Hi guys just a quick note, im new to this site and sorry if the post is a bit long or in the wrong place but im just hoping to clear something up.
Basically I attended a festival back a few months ago and It would be only the 2nd time Ive tried MDMA (first time was back in 2011 at a rave). I wanted to re-capture the great euphoria and general awesomeness the drug makes you feel so I bought what i believe to have been about 3 grams and decided i was going to take it over the three days.
Friday. Drunk lots of alcohol and smoked a lot of weed but decided not to do any MDMA on this day.
Saturday. Took a decent size bomb around 5pm maybe 250mgs (i apologize i cant give exact doses im a complete newbie to this) had a great time and around 9pm decided to have a heavier re-dose to watch the headliner. Now i should also state i lost all my mates at this point so I was on my own in the crowd but anyway this roll was nothing like what I had experienced before. I was just hallucinating wildly and the time seemed to go on forever. After the gig I went back to the tent and was like a zombie until I finally fell asleep.
Sunday. The final day so I wanted to go out with a bang and still had quite a bit of MDMA left. After saturday nights roll i should of sold the stuff and just stuck to alcohol but hindsight is a wonderful thing. So around 4pm i had my first bomb. Put a fair bit in there Im guessing around 125mgs and nothing happened! I decided to wait until around 8pm when we were heading to the main stage to dose up. I made myself 3 bombs and i put absolutely loads in each one. Im guessing maybe around half a gram in each one. (maybe a bit less than that but again I apologize) but I do know it was too much. I bombed the first one 8.30pm.. and i only started coming up mildly. Re-dosed around 10pm and it didnt really make the high more powerful it just seemed to prolong it. Stupidly I then took the last one aswell. This is where the nightmare kicked in. I just felt as if my body was aching and had a bad headache so i headed back to camp to chill out. Then the hallucinations started kicking in and my mouth was just so dry i felt like i couldnt even swallow. Speech was slurred badly aswell. I actually thought I was going to die it was honestly the worst experience in my life. I was just sat in my chair gazing into nothing not completely aware of my surroundings just thinking purely that im gonna die. As you can imagine the come down the next day was awful.
Looking back on it now I realise I acted very stupidly, abused the drug and faced the consequences. When I got home I had the usual symptoms of a heavy weekend but got over it after about a week or so and since then I keep thinking that ive done some long term damage? After a quick browse on this site I have saw 'Serotonin Syndrome' pop up a lot. Is this what i experienced? Are the effects long term?
I plan not to take MDMA again anytime soon and havent touched it since then (august) but hopefully in the future i can take it again but this time much more responsibly. My main concern is will I get a good high off it if I take it again? Or have i damaged my serotonin receptors forever???
Sorry for the long ass post, its just im quite worried and I didnt wanna leave too many details out. Thanks in advance
Basically I attended a festival back a few months ago and It would be only the 2nd time Ive tried MDMA (first time was back in 2011 at a rave). I wanted to re-capture the great euphoria and general awesomeness the drug makes you feel so I bought what i believe to have been about 3 grams and decided i was going to take it over the three days.
Friday. Drunk lots of alcohol and smoked a lot of weed but decided not to do any MDMA on this day.
Saturday. Took a decent size bomb around 5pm maybe 250mgs (i apologize i cant give exact doses im a complete newbie to this) had a great time and around 9pm decided to have a heavier re-dose to watch the headliner. Now i should also state i lost all my mates at this point so I was on my own in the crowd but anyway this roll was nothing like what I had experienced before. I was just hallucinating wildly and the time seemed to go on forever. After the gig I went back to the tent and was like a zombie until I finally fell asleep.
Sunday. The final day so I wanted to go out with a bang and still had quite a bit of MDMA left. After saturday nights roll i should of sold the stuff and just stuck to alcohol but hindsight is a wonderful thing. So around 4pm i had my first bomb. Put a fair bit in there Im guessing around 125mgs and nothing happened! I decided to wait until around 8pm when we were heading to the main stage to dose up. I made myself 3 bombs and i put absolutely loads in each one. Im guessing maybe around half a gram in each one. (maybe a bit less than that but again I apologize) but I do know it was too much. I bombed the first one 8.30pm.. and i only started coming up mildly. Re-dosed around 10pm and it didnt really make the high more powerful it just seemed to prolong it. Stupidly I then took the last one aswell. This is where the nightmare kicked in. I just felt as if my body was aching and had a bad headache so i headed back to camp to chill out. Then the hallucinations started kicking in and my mouth was just so dry i felt like i couldnt even swallow. Speech was slurred badly aswell. I actually thought I was going to die it was honestly the worst experience in my life. I was just sat in my chair gazing into nothing not completely aware of my surroundings just thinking purely that im gonna die. As you can imagine the come down the next day was awful.
Looking back on it now I realise I acted very stupidly, abused the drug and faced the consequences. When I got home I had the usual symptoms of a heavy weekend but got over it after about a week or so and since then I keep thinking that ive done some long term damage? After a quick browse on this site I have saw 'Serotonin Syndrome' pop up a lot. Is this what i experienced? Are the effects long term?
I plan not to take MDMA again anytime soon and havent touched it since then (august) but hopefully in the future i can take it again but this time much more responsibly. My main concern is will I get a good high off it if I take it again? Or have i damaged my serotonin receptors forever???
Sorry for the long ass post, its just im quite worried and I didnt wanna leave too many details out. Thanks in advance