Alright, So I tried molly for the first time this year and since I've probably rolled about 20 times. One of those times was a three day binge (I was at a music festival). I had only done molly about 10 times before I started getting depressed. I thought it was just a bad mind-set I had gotten myself in from a bad trip (I do think this contributed to it as well, though). But now I am starting to realize that I probably fucked my serotonin system up a bunch, especially when I rolled three days in a row. When I roll, its not large quantities of molly because I'm a pretty small person, only weighing about 110. I've felt like my mind is clouded, my ability to write has diminished along with my argumentative and reason abilities. I can't explain my thoughts and I stumble over words. My grammar is also impaired. I feel like I've become a child in many aspects and not in the positive ones I first felt from molly. I can not connect to people and I feel a general since of emotional numbness. I feel like I did when I was taking vyvanse everyday but now I'm aware of my depression instead of just going through the motions which vyvanse made me do. I've had serious panic attacks and I failed my freshman year of college (I was a 4.0 student in high school). I'm in a dark place right now and I'm desperately trying to get out of it. LSD mimics serotonin and it doesn't actually effect your real serotonin. I was thinking that maybe tripping, actually having a decent trip too, might help me overcome this molly rut that I've gotten myself in. At the very least, it might help me understand what I can do to overcome this rut. on the flip side, I already struggling with anxiety and depression and I'm afraid that LSD might make it worse. I've already overcome the worst effects a hallucinogen can do (I've gone to hell and back) so I think I can handle it even if it does increase my depression and anxiety but I also don't want to risk full schizophrenia if I do have a bad trip. However a good trip did completely take me out of my bad trip and vyvanse induced depression and anxiety once before, so I'm wondering if it can do it again.