I have struggled with bulimia for over 12 years and currently have problems with anxiety/panic attacks and depression. It makes my days very difficult and lonely. Doctors have put me on various antidepressants in the past but they always had really bad side effects and/or made me prone to self harm (which I'm normally not) so every time I would end up having to stop taking them (I'm not willing to take any more antidepressants, they clearly have a bad effect on me). However, I found that when I was using Ketamine, it seemed to alleviate some of the hell of being bulimic and depressed (the maniacal, anxiety filled mess that is my mind), and not just while I was was physically high on it. Just using it once or twice a day (a small amount) seemed to make my day a lot brighter, even though the direct effects are short-lived. The person I got it from moved and I haven't gotten any in months (I don't really know anyone where I live), and I've been really down for the past few months.
I've heard that in the US they have been testing Ketamine's potential to treat depression but I don't know if this is true (it's the internet, so who knows). I'm just wondering if anyone else ever had this experience? Or if Ketamine helped them with anything else? I did use it recreationally, but scarcely and in small amounts to boost my mood (I never used it to party or took a large dose), so I don't think I was dependant on it or using it recklessly.
I guess I'm just curious as I've never talked to people about it before. I did alone and kept it a secret as I thought people might think badly of me for doing it.
I've heard that in the US they have been testing Ketamine's potential to treat depression but I don't know if this is true (it's the internet, so who knows). I'm just wondering if anyone else ever had this experience? Or if Ketamine helped them with anything else? I did use it recreationally, but scarcely and in small amounts to boost my mood (I never used it to party or took a large dose), so I don't think I was dependant on it or using it recklessly.
I guess I'm just curious as I've never talked to people about it before. I did alone and kept it a secret as I thought people might think badly of me for doing it.