Pain not being taking seriously. It's hard as fuck to have anything stronger than codeine when under 30, except when one has a terrible flu they will be scripted a pure codeine or hydrocodone syrup, or an accident or things like that, pain that isn't obvious when looking at someone where some people claim "it's just in your head"...well yeah the pain comes from my head, dipshits, anyway Super easy to get benzos but if you are under 30, the best you'll get for like a sprayed ankle is an NSAID and 30 max Empracets (30mg codeine/300mg apap). I had a deviated septum surgery, where they use a tiny buzzsaw to make my inner nasal bone straight which would supposedly help with my allergies, it kinda did, for a while, now the fact something that was inside of me all my life was removed kind of freaks me out. So yeah when I found the kind of doctor I needed (a Maxillofacial Dentist - Specializes in the jaw. The guy was pretty old, so at first when he saw the x-ray done at his clinic of my left jaw bone, he asked me if I had an accident or something, nope, it was one idiot windmilling in a mosh pit, the guy was like 6'5 150 lbs, so his goddamn long arms hit me right in the jaw, I felt like I was having a concussion, and most likely did, but I stayed on my 2 feets, seeing blurry for a minute, that happened on my 18th birthday of all days. We went to eat something after the show and after my first bite, my left jaw made a massive pop and pieces of teeth were in my mouth, real small. Forward 3 years later and the thing got worse and into an everyday thing. So at the ER, I was given a referall to that specialist. He said what I said he said. At first he put on Naproxen 375mg 4 times a day, that didn't cut it, plus why give inflammatories when no inflammation is going on? I see a neurologist, refered to me by the jaw specialist. Tiny fragments of my jaw bones damaged some of the many nerves that come out of your brains near the the TMJ articulation. So I got a diagnosis of TMJ and nerve damage on the trigeminal nerve causing me to have Trigeminal Neuralgia Type II and TMJ disorder on top of it all. Neurologist scripts me clonazepam for the nerve pain, I'll give him credit in knowing that clonazepam is helpful when nerve damage is involved. This only made the pain a boring dull 7/10. Went back to jaw specialist. He put me on Codeine Contins 200mg twice a day with a better NSAID that time, Meloxicam. With an Oxycodan 5mg (generic percodan, we dont have the brand name anymore, i always prefer buying brand name when possible) if the pain flared up, and it did, every stressful situation, I would tense my jaw, i wake up people with my jaw grinding. So the specialist also made a prothesis for me to wear when I sleep for my upper teeth so I don't grind them as I sleep, it kinda helped.
Then the jaw specialist retired out of nowhere, no warning signs, he sent my pharmacy a renewal for the meloxicam 15mg only. Neurologist says he doesn't script opiates, it would be like asking a psychiatrist to take out an ingrown toenail he said, or something like that. Raised my dose of clonazepam from 0.5mg twice a day to 1mg twice a day. So then I was in incredible withdrawal, yeah, 400mg of codeine everyday for 2 years, where half the time I would crush my dose into IR is enough to send you into wd's + the 15 Oxycodans he'd script me per month for breakthrough....I don't think I would have suffered withdrawal if all I got was 15 oxycodans 5mg (they and percocets only go up to 5mg here, no 7.5 or 10mg). So I pretended I had the flu and went to see my GP wearing the mask and all, and he did what he did everytime I visited for the flu, script me some hydrocodone syrup or pills. I preferred the pills. I got buy pretending I had the flu with him twice and once at the ER they scripted me codeine syrup, a large 12 oz bottle of pure 30mg/5ml codeine syrup bottle.
Then I met somebody in the waiting room who was my age, the guy hurt his head really bad and his neck is fucked up due to a skidoo accident, he was there to have his Oxycontin 10mg script renewed, thats all he needed, couldn't see his GP for months, something like that, we exchanged phone number. Then he presented me to someone who had a pharmacy of his own almost. Had all kinds of morphines IR or XR, oxycontins, oxyIR's 20mg footballs, dilaudid, demerol, HM Contins, Talwin, even the Methadone for pain pills, those that have 1mg, 5mg, 10mg and 25mg doses, Cesamet (the best 'noid there is and it's legal meds), a bunch of Adderall XR's, Codeine Contins, he had ampoules of morphine made for IM or IV but was not selling those, keeping em for himself, which I understand. So this guy helped me for a long time because I couldn't find another jaw specialist....but when I tried a shot of Statex (morphine IR) 25mg with a 4mg brand name dilly in too, and experienced both rushes...and suddenly woke up on my friend's bed, where we had been sitting playing Resident Evil 4. He said "Oh you woke up, don't worry, I don't do that, but I've seen it happen often enough, I checked twice if you were breathing fine and you were so I let you be.
That's when.
