My Experience So Far
What are the chances of finding a doctor to prescribe buprenorphine for mild-to-moderate depression with social anxiety/introversion and schizophrenia (the latter I think was schizoaffective and episodic induced by stress; the doctors I've seen think it's more long term)?
Also, has anyone tried buprenorphine as an antidepressant? Actually had it prescribed for this purpose?
Does anyone who'se tried it think it has greater antidepressant properties than other opioids due to being less sedating and especially due to it's being a kappa antagonist?
I have found a psychiatrist willing to accept the possibility of that which my own experience has convinced me completely of...suboxone is a wonder-drug for treating
MY depression. After years of Paxil, Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Alcohol, Xanax, Marijuana, Oxy, Cocaine, and all the other prescribed and non-prescribed substances that I tried, one day I was given a tab of suboxone. All my Oxford House room-mates had been noticing my increasing despondence, isolation, absence of appetite, drawn shades, bedridden
utterly depressed state. "We cant stand to see you like this anymore" one of them said "see if this helps at all." He gave me a 8mg tab and told me to stick it under my tongue. Within 5 minutes I started feeling better. 10 minutes and I was out of bed. 15 minutes and I was, to everyone's amazement, especially my own, a normal functioning human being again. I will spare you the many metaphors and simply say that I had risen back to the
surface of the earth from a deep chasm of misery and despair.
Because it worked for me does not mean it will work for you. I have a theory why it worked for me. Based on research I have subsequently done regarding post acute withdrawal syndrome (I abused alcohol for 25+ years), early childhood migraines and panic attacks, the possibility of type-2 bipolar and endogenous opioid deficiency, I believe the naloxone is just as important as the buprenorphine in the overall success of this drug for treating my depression...particularly in address to contributing factors, such as drinking. The cross-addiction that relates certain opioid receptors to ethanol receptors
www.thci.org/Opioid/nov08docs/chilcoat.pdf may play an important role, given my extensive alcohol use. If opioids can cause alcoholic craving, then why wouldnt opioid antagonists be able to reduce cravings? And while the short-term effects of alcohol ingestion quell my anxiety and lift my mood, the long-term effects are devastating. I have never combined suboxone with alcohol...I have absolutely no desire (or probably more accurate) need to drink when I am on it.
No responsible provider is going to assure you that an anti-depressant medication is going to work for you. The reality is that anti-depressive medication treatment is basically a process of intuitive guesswork, and unfortunately, sometimes just plain trial and error. Im sure it frustrates the medical profession just as much as the patient, although it is the patient who continues to suffer (and pay the medical bills).
The logic behind not prescribing addictive substances to treat disorders when the possibility of a non-habit forming alternative exists is sound. Addiction is a BITCH. However, acute depression and acute chronic pain are bitches in their own right. Some people say they would take 10 years dying of addiction dependency over 40 years of chronic agony. Is it better to burn out, or fade away? In 8 months of use I had not developed a tolerance. Then my wife and I moved to CA (leaving my contact behind) so I decided to try Zoloft and Wellbutrin again. I experienced no withdrawl symptoms stopping suboxone. I had
not become addicted to suboxone. However, despite the sunshine (why I moved) and the SSRI's, my depression did return...
but not any worse than it was in the past. I seems I can keep burning as long as I am fading, and that is why I consider suboxone a wonder-drug for me, and myself very lucky.
With my long history of attempted medications and testimony from my wife, I was recently able to get a legal prescription for suboxone. I have not yet discussed a treatment plan with my psychiatrist, but I do intend to attend intensive outpatient counseling to root out any emotional component(s). It was thought for the longest time that the brain was a hard-wired machine incapable of repair. We now know that in fact it is quite the opposite. An excellent book on the subject of neuroplasticity is "the brain that changes itself" by Norman Doidge, M.D. Highly effective, non-medication based treatments are being discovered for a variety of brain-related maladies, depression included. That being said, the suboxone has been paid for again (legally this time), my feet are back on the ground where I feel the sunshine, and as sometimes just happens-funny in life, I got carded while buying my final beer. Im 46.
You might find a doctor who will subscribe suboxone But please, please be honest. Drug-Seeking Behavior drives nails in the coffins of people like me who legitimately need medications like suboxone. If you have read this and can relate then you have my deepest sympathies, I hope you can find a forward-thinking physician too, they are out there...and increasing in number (maybe slowly but still...) Good luck, peace.