firstly, I advise you to immediately let your doctor know about your situation and stop drinking as quickly as possible under their supervision/guidance. I tried to research how long it takes to become physically dependent on alcohol, but got mixed answers. however, it most likely takes several weeks to a few months of very heavy consistent drinking. sorry, I’m not really sure how strong vodka is and I’m not familiar with alcohol, given that I am Muslim and have never drank or had it in my household. therefore, I can’t speak from experience so please forgive me if any information I give is inaccurate. to be honest, it’s completely natural that you are seeking out other substances whether it be to negate opioid physical withdrawal symptoms or to address the depression/reward deficiency that can occur when you quit any addictive drug. depending on your reasoning, my advice is as follows:
If you are drinking to self medicate physical withdrawals or sleep issues, you might be better off very temporarily using something like clonidine as this could help you ride out the withdrawal.
If it is psychological factors like poor mood and Constant anxiety, you may want to use something like baclofen or pregabalin, but again, only on a short-term basis. nevertheless, I would much prefer you tried traditional methods like reaching out to others, healthy diet and exercise and good sleep hygiene a try first. in most cases, the less pharmaceuticals in your body, The quicker your recovery should be and you avoid the risk of addiction/dependence on substances you intended to help you.
All of this should be done in consultation with your doctor/medical professional as I have no medical qualifications whatsoever.
Never feel angry with yourself or hate who you are. addiction is a disease with a strong biological basis so your urges to seek out relief from substances doesn’t mean you are a bad person at all. however, understanding that your cravings are biological but that they can be battled and defeated with A positive mindset and the right environmental changes means you are more than capable of living the happy/healthy life you want.