thizzin' since 98
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- Feb 22, 2011
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So I've been suffering from panic and anxiety disorder for going on two years now. It's virtually a 24 hour problem. I am always tense, always shaky, nervous, and suffer from almost constant depersonalization, which leads to depression.
I'm afraid to take Benzo's regularly as I don't want to become addicted. For now, I only take .5mg of my alprazolam whenever I am feeling absolutely terrible or about to panic. Other then that, I just deal with it.
But now I am sick and tired of this bullshit. It's genuinely ruining my life. My brain isn't sharp, my memory is horrible, my creativity is out the window, I cant make decisions to save my life.
Would it be beneficial to maybe start taking .5mg every day for maybe a few weeks, maybe to relief my brain of all the stress, and hopefully lead to a long term healing, or will this only mask the anxiety for the time being.
This depersonalization is haunting me, like a nightmare. I feel like I don't have a connection to this world and the people around me. I don't feel like I am a soul, I'm just an empty vessel. I just lost the girl of my dreams, a 2 year relationship, out the door.
I'm afraid to take Benzo's regularly as I don't want to become addicted. For now, I only take .5mg of my alprazolam whenever I am feeling absolutely terrible or about to panic. Other then that, I just deal with it.
But now I am sick and tired of this bullshit. It's genuinely ruining my life. My brain isn't sharp, my memory is horrible, my creativity is out the window, I cant make decisions to save my life.
Would it be beneficial to maybe start taking .5mg every day for maybe a few weeks, maybe to relief my brain of all the stress, and hopefully lead to a long term healing, or will this only mask the anxiety for the time being.
This depersonalization is haunting me, like a nightmare. I feel like I don't have a connection to this world and the people around me. I don't feel like I am a soul, I'm just an empty vessel. I just lost the girl of my dreams, a 2 year relationship, out the door.
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