Hi guys, I've had a brief period of street drug use, and have been suffering from anxiety, depression and panic attacks whenever I'm reminded of all the garbage I used to put into my body. I'm afraid that I'm going to get cancer and die or that I have done my body irreversible damage. I'm going to give you some background.
in november 2012, I started using lot of T4 and oxycodone for dental pain. I also started doing cocaine. A few weeks after I started smoking heroin (tinfoil straw method). I took ecstacy handful of times. I smoked meth a few times. Marijuana and tobacco all the time.
One day in december, I found it hard to breath. I went to the doctor and said it was drug induced asthma. I coughed up blood and got freaked out, got xray, doctor said it was okay. So my coke and heroin usage was almost everyday, for a good month and a half. After this, I immediately stopped. I got through heroin withdrawl by smoking meth to get some energy to move about.
After January 2013, I only smoked marijuana and tobacco everyday. The marijuana always smelled like febreeze, I'm kinda worried maybe it had been sprayed with some shit to get more high. whenever I was running I used to get tight chested, had to rely on inhalers all the time. I had a lot of phlegm development in the morning. In december 2013, I stopped tobacco, alcohol, weed.
Fast forward to now, I've been clean from the hard stuff for over a year. I've been clean from tobacco, alcohol, weed for a good 5 month now.
I have no desire to do drugs anymore. I've been jogging, working out, and all around living a healthy lifestyle with no substance. I love it.
However, I'm always filled with fear and anxiety because of my past drug use. I'm afraid the street drugs I have no idea of knowing whether they were good quality or mixed with other shit. I'm afraid of all these stuff I read about drugs and wish I had read it earlier. I'm afraid of getting lung cancer and dying, so much that I am thinking of getting CT scans regularly. I'm afraid to have live forever not knowing whether my drug use will have robbed me of the ability to live a full life span. Lot of crazy anxieties and worries.
What should I do?
in november 2012, I started using lot of T4 and oxycodone for dental pain. I also started doing cocaine. A few weeks after I started smoking heroin (tinfoil straw method). I took ecstacy handful of times. I smoked meth a few times. Marijuana and tobacco all the time.
One day in december, I found it hard to breath. I went to the doctor and said it was drug induced asthma. I coughed up blood and got freaked out, got xray, doctor said it was okay. So my coke and heroin usage was almost everyday, for a good month and a half. After this, I immediately stopped. I got through heroin withdrawl by smoking meth to get some energy to move about.
After January 2013, I only smoked marijuana and tobacco everyday. The marijuana always smelled like febreeze, I'm kinda worried maybe it had been sprayed with some shit to get more high. whenever I was running I used to get tight chested, had to rely on inhalers all the time. I had a lot of phlegm development in the morning. In december 2013, I stopped tobacco, alcohol, weed.
Fast forward to now, I've been clean from the hard stuff for over a year. I've been clean from tobacco, alcohol, weed for a good 5 month now.
I have no desire to do drugs anymore. I've been jogging, working out, and all around living a healthy lifestyle with no substance. I love it.
However, I'm always filled with fear and anxiety because of my past drug use. I'm afraid the street drugs I have no idea of knowing whether they were good quality or mixed with other shit. I'm afraid of all these stuff I read about drugs and wish I had read it earlier. I'm afraid of getting lung cancer and dying, so much that I am thinking of getting CT scans regularly. I'm afraid to have live forever not knowing whether my drug use will have robbed me of the ability to live a full life span. Lot of crazy anxieties and worries.
What should I do?