Story like so many. Was in an accident 2012 and got on prescribed meds, then to pain management until kicked off for failing drug test. Been to Rehab for 35 days years ago, made it 6 months of complete abstinence then started drinking again. Then started back with opiates onto black market and found heroin. I haven't been sober since last year around January 2016. Had a few mess ups but then stayed sober for 6 weeks exercising and going to meetings but I fell again. Now I am back to the point of getting sober again. I suffer from PTSD after seeing my father and sister killed and severe panic attacks. So I know why I abuse. I have tried Ibogaine but was unable to stay was actually effd up on my return So I didn't have any after care together or plans due to family emergency, this was the summer before January. So January 2016 was my last sober time. I'm really done for real now. Why? Because I can't get high without spending hundreds of dollars. And I don't even feel high it's a disappointment 90% of the time. Why don't I just quit? I'm weak and can't handle the pain of CT. I have tried sub Taper but am allergic to one or the other ingredients. So I just keep using to not be sick. I have blown so much money I couldn't even say. I have had my own business forever and I'm a damn good day trader. My mom knows everything but I have kept it from most of my clean friends the only ones who know are my user buddies. The dark side as I refer to them. Tapering is not a possible option. Im a daily user. I just want out. I just needed to update my misery and look for any help which I know is available. Thanks for listening all and will be in touch until I get started, any advice always appreciated.