Iliketoswim
Bluelighter
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- Sep 29, 2014
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I've been looking around the forums and just can't find one that matches my situation quite exactly so here it goes. The past few weeks acid and shrooms have been hitting my town with an unlimited supply for the most part. I've had 3 acid trips, 2 of which were very intense, and 1 shroom trip on an eighth the past month I would say. On both of my strong acid trips, I've come across high highs and LOW lows. My first acid trip off two tabs I convinced myself that I was a failure in life and was going to have to spend the rest of my days in a mental hospital. That thought only lasted 5 minutes probably but it really stuck with me. Then on the other trip I had the most amazing night, all good for the entire trip until the effects finally started wearing off and I started thinking about my social status and situation. It took me about 2 seconds to think about it and then I started having suicidal thoughts (fuck!). Ruined my night. The next day I came to terms that all of it is bullshit. I'm worried that next time I might take a trip and never come back. It's fucking scary, I could really take a trip one time and just never be the same, realize something that will totally fuck me in the head for the rest of my life. I plan on tripping next month off 3 tabs (strongest dose ive ever experienced) with two close friends who are first timers but REALLY want to trip with me. What advice can you give to me so that I can continue having beautiful trips that have positive effects on my thoughts and worldview? I really LOVE acid and how peaceful it's made me, I feel like a little kid again! Also, I love the kids who are gonna trip with me, and I'd hate to see them have a bad trip. HOW CAN WE ALL AVOID THESE HORRIBLE THOUGHTS AND REALIZATIONS THAT POP INTO OUR MINDS ON LSD SO WE CAN ALL CONTINUE TO ENJOY ACID?