First of all, stop telling yourself you are depressed, anxious etc. It is making it worse. don't assume you're supposed to feel like shit because you're trying to withdraw. Maybe it's not as bad as you're making it, even though you have no sense of reality as you say (Please hear me out). Okay yes your perception and brain and your well-being has changed and gone down hill. But like others said, there is hope and light at the end of the tunnel.
Since I am not a doctor or have not gone through this personally, and don't know much about dosages and what to do etc, thats not what im going to try to help you with. with whatever method you use to taper off (which absolutely needs to be done), then make sure you first of all realize that it is a PROCESS, and also that this is not PERMANENT. so all i can tell you is to ENJOY this massive 'drug high' that you're basically on right now (I know that sounds almost rude and awful, but I don't mean it like that. I mean truly just try to enjoy it somehow, anyway that you can in the meantime). and i know you may attack me, or think im crazy, or others may as well. I understand you're in a negative state of mind and need serious help. But there is another way to look at it. Enjoy the journey towards getting better. Tell yourself that truly you will quit, truly you will get better, and truly you will get to the bottom of this. Truly there is hope, truly others have gone through the same thing, truly there is a method. Truly it could be worse, truly you are still alive, and still able to type on this forum. Truly you have already taken the steps to start to get help, and truly you are almost there. Just needs a little bit more faith and patience. And like others have said, there was/is an underlying problem that needs to be found and addressed, because of your choice to take this drug in the first place/now. And it's a good thing sometimes that there is a problem, because there is a solution to every problem, ALWAYS, whether we see it or not! God works in miraculous ways.
I have a friend who is going through a similar thing right now, with Clonazepam (3mg). He is down to 1.75 and has been tapering off it since June. he has cold turkey'd off of .5 kpins as well (PLEASE follow a doctor's advice before doing any sort of thing like this, I am not a doctor and don't know these things). It takes persistence and hope and patience, and a bit of prayer. you can make it. Keep seeking help. Keep talking to others. Take the doctors advice. Go back to rehab. Plan to get better, and plan to get off all drugs in the end. I wish you the best :D
I CAN however give you a link to a thread I've made in the past, where I had tripped 9 times (6x lsd + 3x shrooms) in the course of 3 months (some wont even call this a lot), and had persistence effects for months afterwards. It wasn't TERRIBLE, but everything around me was DIFFERENT, I was ANXIOUS, DEPRESSED, (as usual) but also OUT OF REALITY, and everything was MOVING if I stared long enough. it was NOT so enjoyable. It was ALWAYS on my mind (and in my vision). I thought it would last forever (I know this is very different, but still somewhat related). Looking back, I'm glad it was over, and wished I had more hope that it would completely be gone (and its been gone for years now).
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/504098-When-will-shit-stop-moving-(been-5-months-with-anxieties)
Here is the thread, but just know that was what I was going through at the time, and right now I am completely fine. I just wish I rided it out more, and enjoyed it while it lasted, is what I'm trying to say
I couldn't even used to read text on a screen, without literally seeing all of the text and images moving lol, (slightly, though). i dont even wanna read the whole thread , or think about it too much. Fear of flashbacks
Don't worry, completely different drugs, so that won't happen to you down the line. It's just going to be a matter of getting what's going on deep down inside you checked. It's a matter of just sticking to the plan and giving it time, as well. If there is an underlying emotional problem, you should talk it out, with us, or anyone. this forum i would think is safe, ignore any negative comments, its always best to talk about your feelings before they just destroy you through anyway that they can. We are here for you