Aspergers and substance abuse

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I can see myself in most of these posts. I am currently trying to get sober, utilizing suboxone and trying to get psychological help and to be able to understand why I am the way I am and why it's so hard to trust people and make friends or even be intimate with others. I will bring this all up to the psychologist when I finally get in, and also a few other ideas but not holding myself to any label just trying to understand and have a starting point. Self diagnosis is not a good thing as we are biased and tend to delude ourselves about our true selves. I sincerely hope I am able to understand what is wrong with me and how exactly to encourage neuroplasticity and change negative behaviors and associations and build a fulfilling life for myself.