johnnyflamingo
Greenlighter
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- Apr 19, 2017
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Hey folks
This is my first post i have read a couple of threads before this but i have created this profile to try to get an answer for a question that have been bothering me the last 3-4 years especially as i have gotten and older iam currently a 27 guy and I apologize if my spelling or so grammar aren’t correct, but I have been on cocain and booze the last 7 hours.
I have aspergers and my question as in the headlight is regarding that mainly, my lead question is if anybody have the same experience as me and how they tackle it (hopefully better than me) I didn’t have many friends growing up was awkward, but when I reached my teen years that semi changed iam a ok looking guy so when I found alcohol I could interact like my class mates(at parties ) and score girls it was a complete eye opener for me, the problem was as I got older I tended to get drunker and drunker and while It was “cool/okay in your teens it isn’t in your twenties so I turned to drugs and gambling which could feed my dopamine levels and gradually cast all friends/girls who don’t do it which is about 90% as they are nearing the 30. But fast forward to today, and my question/questions I have read quite a bit about recovery and making life changes, and the problem for me is they often focus on either socially reconnection or hobbies.
Iam at a stage in life that I really have no hobbies besides drinking,gambling or drugs and at the same time I find people who don’t do these things boring, I realize that many of the last statements isn’t bound to aspergers as from what I have read that I quite normal feelings for addicts but my problem is that the world seems grey and boring without drugs or alcohol as I mostly don’t care or understand the social games that normal people play. I have been sober 3-4 months in periods to see if it was a reaction from alcohol and drugs but I still feel the same if im not drinking or using.
So my real question is there any aspergers with a similar story(if you can under the mumbling) I know there is a lot of text and a lot of it is either repetitive or just nonsense but the reason I haven’t edited is that im afraid im not gonna post it then and I have been trying to tackle this problem for 2 years and it has only gotten worse so hopefully there is somebody out there with some advide
If your gotten this far thank you and have a fantastic day ?
This is my first post i have read a couple of threads before this but i have created this profile to try to get an answer for a question that have been bothering me the last 3-4 years especially as i have gotten and older iam currently a 27 guy and I apologize if my spelling or so grammar aren’t correct, but I have been on cocain and booze the last 7 hours.
I have aspergers and my question as in the headlight is regarding that mainly, my lead question is if anybody have the same experience as me and how they tackle it (hopefully better than me) I didn’t have many friends growing up was awkward, but when I reached my teen years that semi changed iam a ok looking guy so when I found alcohol I could interact like my class mates(at parties ) and score girls it was a complete eye opener for me, the problem was as I got older I tended to get drunker and drunker and while It was “cool/okay in your teens it isn’t in your twenties so I turned to drugs and gambling which could feed my dopamine levels and gradually cast all friends/girls who don’t do it which is about 90% as they are nearing the 30. But fast forward to today, and my question/questions I have read quite a bit about recovery and making life changes, and the problem for me is they often focus on either socially reconnection or hobbies.
Iam at a stage in life that I really have no hobbies besides drinking,gambling or drugs and at the same time I find people who don’t do these things boring, I realize that many of the last statements isn’t bound to aspergers as from what I have read that I quite normal feelings for addicts but my problem is that the world seems grey and boring without drugs or alcohol as I mostly don’t care or understand the social games that normal people play. I have been sober 3-4 months in periods to see if it was a reaction from alcohol and drugs but I still feel the same if im not drinking or using.
So my real question is there any aspergers with a similar story(if you can under the mumbling) I know there is a lot of text and a lot of it is either repetitive or just nonsense but the reason I haven’t edited is that im afraid im not gonna post it then and I have been trying to tackle this problem for 2 years and it has only gotten worse so hopefully there is somebody out there with some advide
If your gotten this far thank you and have a fantastic day ?