Hi and good day everyone, English is not my native language so I will try to make it short and simple also pls pardon me if my Grammer gives u headache :x
I used to smoke meth a alot mainly for competitive gaming.
I really enjoy the focus, full hearing alertness, focus and the mental processing prediction it gave me when I was gaming. I was young and was on it full time during probably 24-26+. Eventually I came to a stop because of how badly it was affecting my life, that I really dont even feel like eating and fainted quite a few times. I continue competitive gaming for years without meth..
I am 36 now, I can feel my reaction time and brain processing in game is so bad now even compare to a year or two ago. I am also no longer even anywhere near the standard of joining any tournament at all. I even lost interest in gaming overall. I don't feel the joy of playing it nor the motivation.. this is where I think it ends for me, however recently I started LSD, 200ug and 300ug, somemore I enjoy it on gaming more than tripping, zen, and partying. It gave me x2 feel of what I recall when I was on meth, literally all the performance and all my muscle reflex, mental processing prediction logic are all back, I couldn't believe it. I nv thought I will ever feel this again and I really enjoy it.
I am diagnosed with major depression and have ongoing treatment with effoxor xr, I find it helps but have stop taking it since few weeks ago because I felt it just doesn't shut off my brain even when I was aslp, despite having insomia, my phychiatris only give me atarax and refuse to give me anything else..
I don't go out, I do not have friends except my teammates, i hv a stable job and I basically do not interest in anything except gaming and movie.. I really want this feeling when I game, sadly my LSD dealer had gone missing.
I recently learn about aderall, modvigil and Ritalin, i have tried modvigil, modvigil 200mg doesn't work good for me and I am constantly on 400mg now, however all I got from it was awakeness and a bit of motivation. I still can't make use of my hearing and mental processing. And I use nitrazepam 5mg to help me to sleep at night.
I have no access to Adderall here only Ritalin which I have not try yet. So my question is should I give Ritalin a try? Can it gives me what I desire ?
I used to smoke meth a alot mainly for competitive gaming.
I really enjoy the focus, full hearing alertness, focus and the mental processing prediction it gave me when I was gaming. I was young and was on it full time during probably 24-26+. Eventually I came to a stop because of how badly it was affecting my life, that I really dont even feel like eating and fainted quite a few times. I continue competitive gaming for years without meth..
I am 36 now, I can feel my reaction time and brain processing in game is so bad now even compare to a year or two ago. I am also no longer even anywhere near the standard of joining any tournament at all. I even lost interest in gaming overall. I don't feel the joy of playing it nor the motivation.. this is where I think it ends for me, however recently I started LSD, 200ug and 300ug, somemore I enjoy it on gaming more than tripping, zen, and partying. It gave me x2 feel of what I recall when I was on meth, literally all the performance and all my muscle reflex, mental processing prediction logic are all back, I couldn't believe it. I nv thought I will ever feel this again and I really enjoy it.
I am diagnosed with major depression and have ongoing treatment with effoxor xr, I find it helps but have stop taking it since few weeks ago because I felt it just doesn't shut off my brain even when I was aslp, despite having insomia, my phychiatris only give me atarax and refuse to give me anything else..
I don't go out, I do not have friends except my teammates, i hv a stable job and I basically do not interest in anything except gaming and movie.. I really want this feeling when I game, sadly my LSD dealer had gone missing.
I recently learn about aderall, modvigil and Ritalin, i have tried modvigil, modvigil 200mg doesn't work good for me and I am constantly on 400mg now, however all I got from it was awakeness and a bit of motivation. I still can't make use of my hearing and mental processing. And I use nitrazepam 5mg to help me to sleep at night.
I have no access to Adderall here only Ritalin which I have not try yet. So my question is should I give Ritalin a try? Can it gives me what I desire ?