The government once sent me a lovely ton of cash in which I brilliantly invested into an altoid can full of blue M30 roxycodone's lol. As someone who felt the same as you do within this very post, I would be inclined to agree if the user can control their use. However, with that much under my supply a few years ago I'd just constantly be redosing/I've never felt my testosterone plummet so low and feeling terrible alllll the time. If you're like me, and I'm willing to bet that most people are when encountering a bottomless refill script situation, then its ironically hell. You unknowingly make your entire life revolve around the opioids if that makes sense. Even if you're very productive and good at masking ur dependency issues to everyone else in your life, there's something biologically going on that makes arguably one of the best feelings in the world become the opposite. Towards the end of that altoid can, I was kind of relieved to go into withdrawals again and not be tempted to take the same drug a million times per day lol. Its not what people would think I promise. Something like an unlimited script of opioids seems too good to be true, but the entire time half of you wishes it would just stop. You can't though, because to chuck the script would be suicide > to keep living day after day redosing allll the time is suicide as well.
I can appreciate your viewpoint. I mean it's exactly why I'm quitting opioids. It's not the same as a proper full agonist, but I have gone years at a time where I never ran out of kratom, it's that affordable a habit.
The problem with opioids is that the cognitive/mental euphoria can be gone/dulled very shortly after only a few uses. But it's really not the mental euphoria of opioids that is the issue. It's hard, damn near impossible for some, whether your use is recreational or for a chronic ailment, to let go of that warm blanket that soothes your physical fatigue of this omnipotent universe.
I just want to get to a point in my life when I can have a loving, healthy relationship with opioids, use one occasionally if I'd like. And I have made remarkable progress. 3-4 years ago I was snorting a gram or two of heroin every couple days, pretending nothing was wrong with my life because I was holding the job down, keeping the bills paid. But mentally the stress of financially maintaining that habit, and having a wife and kitties depending on me, I think all of that, did some damage to me that you won't find in any track mark. But even in this amount of time I was like a child then. I was simply not ready to settle down, and I simply didn't have my priorities in line. I don't know how long I got away with it as I did.
My marriage fell apart over a lot of different things, and it's hard to boil them all down. And it's not really something I prefer to do in public at any rate. In some ways there can be parallels drawn between love and drugs, once one becomes tolerant, and their need for chemical validation (literally the same as physical validation in some ways) become more taxing and more convoluted. Marriages get compassion fatigue, and junkies get junkie fatigue. Just don't wanna do it no mo
Sorry. Went on a tangent. But this DC mf whatchu claimin
It is definitely unbelievably hypocritical for society to press alcohol onto the public and advertise the shit out of the product (despite the unfathomable damage that liquor still continues to produce). Opiates in some regards--definitely within reason--are safer than alcohollism because they're not neurotoxic. I don't want alcohol to be banned and I doubt anyone does either. Just wishing that the USA in particular would be more forgiving/lenient on other substances > focus more so on treatment plans etc.
Maybe some... grapes and whatever else kills dogs could be great to sprinkle over it. What could possibly go wrong?!!