timetohunt
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10 year opiate habit. Hydro for 4 years then Opana and Roxi. Had up to a 300+ mg a day habit during many runs. Over the other 6 years I'd get off for a month here and there but always went back. Multiple rehabs, will not be doing any more of those due to many reasons. I'm the most determined and serious I've ever been. The mild autumn weather will help. And with football season getting started, I have a legit distraction.
Anyway, I have been on methadone for about a week going from 30mg down to 5. I'm out now and have no way of getting anymore. It's go time. Time to put in my suffering. I got the house clean and in order. Will not have to heavily tend to my home business for about 5 weeks. Just leaving some things for the postman to pick up and spending a few minutes on the computer each day.
I don't have the specter of a long Methadone history hanging over me. Just used in crunch times. I like that the 'come down' is kind of gradual.
But what should I expect over the next few weeks. Anything different from the normal misery of a short oc/oxy taper and then turkey it (which is my normal route). No turning back this time, I've hit my emotional bottom and near physical bottom. I'm a dead guy if I don't make it this time. I have some xanax and lunesta, but not enough to start a new addiction. I also tend to sip a little wine along with my other fluids for anxiety. Not much, but it really helps me. A security blanket sort of.
So how will the week of Methadone play out in your folks opinions. Today is my last day of feeling okay, plus tomorrow should not be a cliff dive either as I have some methadone build up.
Btw, I was a straw/snort guy on roxi and IR opana and chewed the non-crush OCs over the past 3 years if that helps with background. Of course I only swallowed the dones. Also I did have an 18 month suboxone experiment, but it resulted in bad side effects and I stopped trying that.
Anyway, I have been on methadone for about a week going from 30mg down to 5. I'm out now and have no way of getting anymore. It's go time. Time to put in my suffering. I got the house clean and in order. Will not have to heavily tend to my home business for about 5 weeks. Just leaving some things for the postman to pick up and spending a few minutes on the computer each day.
I don't have the specter of a long Methadone history hanging over me. Just used in crunch times. I like that the 'come down' is kind of gradual.
But what should I expect over the next few weeks. Anything different from the normal misery of a short oc/oxy taper and then turkey it (which is my normal route). No turning back this time, I've hit my emotional bottom and near physical bottom. I'm a dead guy if I don't make it this time. I have some xanax and lunesta, but not enough to start a new addiction. I also tend to sip a little wine along with my other fluids for anxiety. Not much, but it really helps me. A security blanket sort of.
So how will the week of Methadone play out in your folks opinions. Today is my last day of feeling okay, plus tomorrow should not be a cliff dive either as I have some methadone build up.
Btw, I was a straw/snort guy on roxi and IR opana and chewed the non-crush OCs over the past 3 years if that helps with background. Of course I only swallowed the dones. Also I did have an 18 month suboxone experiment, but it resulted in bad side effects and I stopped trying that.
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