Ayahuascalobster
Greenlighter
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- Jan 27, 2017
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God I wish I never got into alcohol. Of course I consider myself fortunate when I tried opiates and Coke and other pills when I was younger, I didn't like them...but alcohol has really setback my psychedelic journey. Mixing alcohol with psychedelics ...smh. I feel it was partially responsible for my 2 worst trips. I first smoked weed at 17. I was all set on not ever drinking (which isn't realistic). But I was doing community service at 18 and this girl got me into drinking. Then my drinking really took off because of my social anxiety. I just feel if I had found psychedelics before that girl found me, I would've not become an alcoholic. I'm in a much better place thanks to naltrexone but alcohol has been the real damager to me. If it weren't for psychedelics I'd probably be a narcissist from alcoholism but I've done a lot of work on "the ego". Inspired by psychedelics. And If I had never drank before I did psychedelics I could've self medicated myself with psychedelics moreso than I would have with drinking. Oh well I don't really know what would have happened but it's a regret I gotta learn to live with. I just wish I never tried beer/liquor until I had tripped first and I would be in a much better place. Thoughts, insights, questions?? Although like I said naltrexone has been a miracle helper to me.
Ps I'm not blaming that girl it's my own fault for succumbing to peer pressure
Ps I'm not blaming that girl it's my own fault for succumbing to peer pressure