Cudi
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It has been 2 years since the last (and first) time I tripped. It was 2 tabs of LSD that turned out to be double dosed, so 4 hits altogether. I have a thread posted about this trip, but I'll just save you the time. You can read it if you want. It turned out to be the worst trip of all time and changed my life. I had PTSD like symptoms for months and couldn't sleep properly for weeks, it was that bad. Told myself I wouldn't ever touch a drug ever again, even alcohol or weed. I feared them.
BUT. Here I am, 2 years later. Recovered. Better than I've ever been in my life really. For the last few months the mushroom has been tugging on my shoulder. I've been watching numerous lectures of Terence Mckenna discussing mushrooms for the last couple weeks, and reading up on loads of trip reports. The research I've done into psychedelics over the last 2 years since that terrible trip has been expansive. Books, videos, documentaries, you name it. I know so much about these substances, but have only had a trip one time. My curiosity is ever so maximizing toward a peak.
I am asking however, if I truly am ready. Terence always mentions that the issue with mushrooms is people don't take enough. He says 3.5-4 grams is surely the proper dose, even for a first timer like myself. That way, he goes on to say, you're completely taken over by it and forced to surrender to the experience. Having had a nightmare trip, I'm a little anxious about it, although I do believe the main reason my trip went bad to begin with was due to cannabis. At the peak of my trip I speak about, I smoked a lot of pot from a bong on my deck. Things went south shortly after. This time around, I won't be including cannabis into the mix whatsoever. I might just keep some benzos handy though just in case.
This sounds stupid, but I must add this in too. Yesterday, it was hilarious. I was at a Chinese place getting food and upon leaving, I reached my hand into the fortune cookie basket thing they have. It was the last fortune cookie. Sometimes I'm a superstitious person when it comes to coincidences, so I open it with great interest. I crack it open and get the paper out of it. It reads "May your faith always exceed your fears-- no price is too great to go through life afraid." And then I turn it around, and my luckiest number 47 appears on the backside along with other numbers. I've been fearing going into this experience and debating if it's worth potential months of recovery again. As dumb as it sounds, reading this caused my courage to increase greatly about this trip.
I don't know for sure when this trip will happen. Sometime within the next 8 months. It will be Cubensis. During this trip, I seek to listen to beautiful music, go outside into beautiful nature, and just be in a pleasant setting. I want to experience the mushroom's dialogue that so many people tell about. I want the extraordinary visuals that go in synchroncity with my thoughts and the sounds around me. I'm a very spiritual person, but don't tie myself to any certain religion at the moment. I want a spiritual experience. I honestly almost want to trip alone, but with a trip sitter. Intertwining with someone else's trip isn't ideal to me. I just want so badly to let go and not encounter much fear in this experience.
Any opinions on Terence's advice about doing 3.5 to 4 grams, and also being the only one tripping? I know we aren't supposed to ask on these forums "What dose" so instead I suppose I'll just keep it worded as it is, on the opinions of Terence's advice.
BUT. Here I am, 2 years later. Recovered. Better than I've ever been in my life really. For the last few months the mushroom has been tugging on my shoulder. I've been watching numerous lectures of Terence Mckenna discussing mushrooms for the last couple weeks, and reading up on loads of trip reports. The research I've done into psychedelics over the last 2 years since that terrible trip has been expansive. Books, videos, documentaries, you name it. I know so much about these substances, but have only had a trip one time. My curiosity is ever so maximizing toward a peak.
I am asking however, if I truly am ready. Terence always mentions that the issue with mushrooms is people don't take enough. He says 3.5-4 grams is surely the proper dose, even for a first timer like myself. That way, he goes on to say, you're completely taken over by it and forced to surrender to the experience. Having had a nightmare trip, I'm a little anxious about it, although I do believe the main reason my trip went bad to begin with was due to cannabis. At the peak of my trip I speak about, I smoked a lot of pot from a bong on my deck. Things went south shortly after. This time around, I won't be including cannabis into the mix whatsoever. I might just keep some benzos handy though just in case.
This sounds stupid, but I must add this in too. Yesterday, it was hilarious. I was at a Chinese place getting food and upon leaving, I reached my hand into the fortune cookie basket thing they have. It was the last fortune cookie. Sometimes I'm a superstitious person when it comes to coincidences, so I open it with great interest. I crack it open and get the paper out of it. It reads "May your faith always exceed your fears-- no price is too great to go through life afraid." And then I turn it around, and my luckiest number 47 appears on the backside along with other numbers. I've been fearing going into this experience and debating if it's worth potential months of recovery again. As dumb as it sounds, reading this caused my courage to increase greatly about this trip.
I don't know for sure when this trip will happen. Sometime within the next 8 months. It will be Cubensis. During this trip, I seek to listen to beautiful music, go outside into beautiful nature, and just be in a pleasant setting. I want to experience the mushroom's dialogue that so many people tell about. I want the extraordinary visuals that go in synchroncity with my thoughts and the sounds around me. I'm a very spiritual person, but don't tie myself to any certain religion at the moment. I want a spiritual experience. I honestly almost want to trip alone, but with a trip sitter. Intertwining with someone else's trip isn't ideal to me. I just want so badly to let go and not encounter much fear in this experience.
Any opinions on Terence's advice about doing 3.5 to 4 grams, and also being the only one tripping? I know we aren't supposed to ask on these forums "What dose" so instead I suppose I'll just keep it worded as it is, on the opinions of Terence's advice.
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