Yesterday I took one hit of acid for the first time in a couple years. It ended up being the most intense trip of my life. Apparently the acid was quite strong, according to my friend who also took one hit.
We ended up taking a walk downtown to go watch a parade. My friend seemed to be 100% cool the whole time. In fact, he was acting practically normal (he does trip every two weeks or so).
However, for me, I ended up going into this very spiritual head-space and started to feel like I was about to lose control of my body and enter a fugue state. I could feel the shells of my ego floating away one by one and I didn't know how I'd be able to carry myself in public. I was exerting all my mental energy to hold myself together. I told him I wouldn't be able to go to the parade, I just couldn't imagine being around a bunch of sober people. When I told him that I felt like I was about to experience ego death, he seemed to have no idea what I was talking about. He asked me interestedly what I meant when I talked about the concept of "ego". Clearly he experiences psychedelics differently than I do.
When I do psychedelics, I almost always experience some degree of ego death and time stopping. I have profound insights into the nature of reality. However, my friend and his buddies just seem to just have a good time, see fun colors, etc.
Why do I seem to have a different experience than my social group? Is it because I don't trip as often as they do?
We ended up taking a walk downtown to go watch a parade. My friend seemed to be 100% cool the whole time. In fact, he was acting practically normal (he does trip every two weeks or so).
However, for me, I ended up going into this very spiritual head-space and started to feel like I was about to lose control of my body and enter a fugue state. I could feel the shells of my ego floating away one by one and I didn't know how I'd be able to carry myself in public. I was exerting all my mental energy to hold myself together. I told him I wouldn't be able to go to the parade, I just couldn't imagine being around a bunch of sober people. When I told him that I felt like I was about to experience ego death, he seemed to have no idea what I was talking about. He asked me interestedly what I meant when I talked about the concept of "ego". Clearly he experiences psychedelics differently than I do.
When I do psychedelics, I almost always experience some degree of ego death and time stopping. I have profound insights into the nature of reality. However, my friend and his buddies just seem to just have a good time, see fun colors, etc.
Why do I seem to have a different experience than my social group? Is it because I don't trip as often as they do?