number22
Bluelighter
- Joined
- May 17, 2016
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- 66
I know there's tons of posts about all the sudden people not enjoying weed anymore, but I feel like my case is just a little than all the ones I've read
So its like most people, I started smoking and it became a huge part of my life. I was 14 when I started, and loved getting high. Tripped for the first time at 16, and fell in love with that too. Battled with mild depression from 16-18 so getting high and taking other drugs seemed like a good way to cope with it all (now looking back I think it made it worse).
I'm 19 now and I slowly switched from being high all day, to getting high at night. Mainly because of work, and I wanted to get my responsibilities done first. Now that school started, I barely smoke at all. I hate doing homework high because I lose all motivation and feel like a retard. At this point when I smoke its literally a few hits from a bowl, or one hit from my dab pen. I got a girlfriend recently too, and don't mind not even smoking all day (not that she doesnt like me being high or anything).
SOO what I'm trying to get at is I don't get super paranoid or feel like I'm gonna get caught or anything. What concerns me the most is how I feel about the music I create (dubstep). I used to produce high all the time, and listened to it high no problem. Now I mainly do it sober, but whenever I get high and listen my music I think its soooo awful and corny. If I listen to others similar to mine, I love it. But just because it's mine I hate it, and I don't know why.
When people listen to my music you think they would think the same? Or is it just because I'm becoming very self conscious?
I'm a hella shy kid and realized how much more shy weed makes me when i'm around people I don't know very well. Can me not liking my music how just be a correlation to me just not being confident in myself? Other produces in a forum say they love to smoke and produce, or produce sober and listen high. I just hate feeling like this about my music when I used to loveee weed so much, but now I don't view it as such an amazing substance.
So its like most people, I started smoking and it became a huge part of my life. I was 14 when I started, and loved getting high. Tripped for the first time at 16, and fell in love with that too. Battled with mild depression from 16-18 so getting high and taking other drugs seemed like a good way to cope with it all (now looking back I think it made it worse).
I'm 19 now and I slowly switched from being high all day, to getting high at night. Mainly because of work, and I wanted to get my responsibilities done first. Now that school started, I barely smoke at all. I hate doing homework high because I lose all motivation and feel like a retard. At this point when I smoke its literally a few hits from a bowl, or one hit from my dab pen. I got a girlfriend recently too, and don't mind not even smoking all day (not that she doesnt like me being high or anything).
SOO what I'm trying to get at is I don't get super paranoid or feel like I'm gonna get caught or anything. What concerns me the most is how I feel about the music I create (dubstep). I used to produce high all the time, and listened to it high no problem. Now I mainly do it sober, but whenever I get high and listen my music I think its soooo awful and corny. If I listen to others similar to mine, I love it. But just because it's mine I hate it, and I don't know why.
When people listen to my music you think they would think the same? Or is it just because I'm becoming very self conscious?
I'm a hella shy kid and realized how much more shy weed makes me when i'm around people I don't know very well. Can me not liking my music how just be a correlation to me just not being confident in myself? Other produces in a forum say they love to smoke and produce, or produce sober and listen high. I just hate feeling like this about my music when I used to loveee weed so much, but now I don't view it as such an amazing substance.