"Alive"

[Jennyfur_Karma_Kin]

There came a time in my life
Where a mirror was held up to me
I was shown everything I have become
Which I've been reconciling
With everything that I've been

I am dark hair that is greying slightly
Blue eyes with dark shadows
Because sometimes my head won't shut up
I'm so tired I'm wide awake
So I lie awake and read books
Until I can hear the birds twittering
Strange dawn lullabies
That make me drift off

There has been great joy in my life
I've danced under the stars
Felt the wetness of sand under my knuckles
Breathed in deeply
Released one long ecstatic breath

The sadness and the vulnerability are fading
There's been a big rain storm tonight
My eyes have been throwing up tears
Strangely in synchronicity with the rain
The sky flings the droplets wildly towards the earth
Now it's stopping and that earthy clean smell
Is rising up and through my window
To permeate this little cave of the past I've been dwelling in
The weight drops from my shoulders
My spine is straightening out again
These aren't burdens
These are wings

I have learnt that I do not need to be fearful
Of anyone or anything in this world
Except myself
But as long as I know how to keep the darkness at bay
I can keep my head up and I can keep my thoughts straight
I've battled too far to let this stop me
I used to be so fearful
Wanting to be anyone but myself
I've let that go

I might be clumsy
And not too wise
But I'm here
I am loving
I am thankful
I'm alive.

 

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This reads like a solemn oath made after the shock of growth washed over you. I enjoy your solid affirmation of reality and making a universal truth personal and fresh to read about. Thank you for your poem.