Also also, haha, try to do some hobbies you really enjoy. It's a good distraction and a major boost for your dopamine release. Even watching a funny movie and laughing will help you out.
Thank you soooooooo much for writing everything and sharing your experience! This truly helps me!
To answer some of your questions:
No disorientation, heightened sensitivity to noises, 'brain zaps' or fatigue?
I did get disoriented and have sensitivity to lights about 56 hours into my abstinence. That's when it hit me. Then, I hurried and drank a beer. I felt an extreme zap once that alcohol hit my brain, then got a hot flash. After ~45mins after the beer kicked in I started to mellow out a bit.
As far as the brain 'zaps' go? Yes! That's the part that freaks me out! That's when I actually go to grab a beer because I can't handle it (brain zaps happened to me like every few mins). And yes, I do have some slight fatigue.
I do get around 8 hours of sleep a night. I assure before I go to sleep that I drink a beer so I don't go through anything serious while I'm asleep. Usually, 8-9 hours later I'll start withdrawaling (just as I'm waking up).
Yes, I definitely detoxed off a major liquor problem years ago, but I was in detox being supervised. Honestly, I don't remember much of it because I slept for an entire week (kept making me take high doses of Librium). And when I left after 5 days? WOW! I came out of medical detox feeling reborn. I definitely want to get back to that state, soon.
I will try to take my time with this, and make sure that I drink at least 1 beer in a 24 hour period for at least a few weeks before completely coming off. Do I want to? Nope. But, like you said, better safe than sorry. Honestly, I do feel like I can make this taper work.
What's even more interesting? Everywhere I go people are giving me a free bottle of wine for Christmas. Two bottles for free in two days from two different stores? This NEVER happens to me! This is definitely the devil tempting me. But let me tell you! I'm not giving in at ALL! The love for my daughter and myself is stronger than the devil tempting me!
How long did your taper take before you jumped completely off the poison? How long after did it take you to recover so you felt completely normal? Any other advices you can offer me based on your experiences?
Also, the only withdrawals I felt today were: pressure in my head, feeling slightly out of it, a few brain zaps, and very mild anxiety. I'm hoping that my body is slowly trying to balance itself out due to the big drop in alcohol consumption. What's odd is that when I quit last Sunday, I felt completely normal ALL day Monday and Tuesday. Then, Wednesday morning at around 3am is when the withdrawals kicked in.