Hello all,
I will spare you the long back story, but a few months ago I started taking oxycodone for pain. I was worried about dependency/addiction, but stupidly I just kept using it. It works, really well, and it's easy, and... well, I don't think I have to explain the appeal. Anyway, fast forward a couple months, and when I tried to stop taking the pills, I became so ill - everything hurt, and I felt like I wanted to crawl out of my skin and shaky and nauseous and snappish and so irritable and bizarrely couldn't stop sneezing for some reason. I thought maybe I had the flu, but as soon as I took a pill, I was fine, so I realized what was going on.
I went to a doctor and explained the situation. He gave me suboxone. This was yesterday. I was told I had to stop taking the pills and wait till I felt really horrible again and there was a checklist I had to score. I did that - waited about 20 hours, though the day before that I had only had 10mg of oxy, so I really was feeling rotten by the time I took the new medicine.
He told me to take the entire strip which is 8mg/2mg. I don't know why, but I just thought that was scary. He said don't cut it, and the package says not to cut it. But I did. I know - I shouldn't have, but I was just scared about it and didn't see the harm in a smaller dose. So I cut it in half, then cut that in half then cut that in half. So that should be 1mg. I figured I just didn't want the whole amount not knowing what it will do to me, and also I was told if I messed up on the waiting time, or the checklist, I would really, really feel much, much worse, so I wanted to minimize that in case I the timing wrong - it is really hard when you feel that terrible to wait.
So I took the 1mg. It smells and tastes awful - but price we pay, I guess. So I waited an hour. I didn't really feel much of anything. I think maybe I felt just slightly less edgy and yucky, but not significantly so. So I took another 1mg and waited an hour.
My question to you is how should I be feeling? I definitely don't feel worse - so I don't think I messed up on the waiting time, because he said it would just make the withdrawal symptoms even more nasty. That isn't the case. However, I don't think I feel perfectly normal... I still am a little edgy and achy and restless, though there is definite improvement.
Prior to this, at the very most in any given day I would take maybe 80 mg of oxy but that was not common- more commonly it was about 45-60 mg a day. And it has been maybe 2 and a half to 3 months and I was taking it every day. I think that is why I am nervous about this new drug and don't want to take that whole strip - because the higher the does I am on the longer this will be, right? I don't want a lifelong/long term habit, and also (though I am no expert) I don't think less than three months of an addiction should mean years of treatment. But maybe I am naive or ignorant.
I just have no idea what to expect. The doc wasn't helpful. He didn't ask about what I was taking or how much or how long, etc. He wasn't even interested in why I had taken it and assumed it was just for kicks and was uninterested in discussing the pain that made me turn to this in the first place. He didn't talk with me about any of this. He tested my urine and then he scolded me about oxy, told me how he hates it, how it ruins everyone's life, etc, and talked not at all about how treatment would work, or what I should expect, or how long it will take before I am ok again.
So should I just wait? Should I call the doctor? Should I take more? Did I do this wrong? IS my reaction at the moment normal? Does it help with pain at all? How are you supposed to feel on this medicine? Has anyone used this successfully and if so, how long should I expect I will need to take it?
Thanks in advance for any advice and your time in reading my post!
I will spare you the long back story, but a few months ago I started taking oxycodone for pain. I was worried about dependency/addiction, but stupidly I just kept using it. It works, really well, and it's easy, and... well, I don't think I have to explain the appeal. Anyway, fast forward a couple months, and when I tried to stop taking the pills, I became so ill - everything hurt, and I felt like I wanted to crawl out of my skin and shaky and nauseous and snappish and so irritable and bizarrely couldn't stop sneezing for some reason. I thought maybe I had the flu, but as soon as I took a pill, I was fine, so I realized what was going on.
I went to a doctor and explained the situation. He gave me suboxone. This was yesterday. I was told I had to stop taking the pills and wait till I felt really horrible again and there was a checklist I had to score. I did that - waited about 20 hours, though the day before that I had only had 10mg of oxy, so I really was feeling rotten by the time I took the new medicine.
He told me to take the entire strip which is 8mg/2mg. I don't know why, but I just thought that was scary. He said don't cut it, and the package says not to cut it. But I did. I know - I shouldn't have, but I was just scared about it and didn't see the harm in a smaller dose. So I cut it in half, then cut that in half then cut that in half. So that should be 1mg. I figured I just didn't want the whole amount not knowing what it will do to me, and also I was told if I messed up on the waiting time, or the checklist, I would really, really feel much, much worse, so I wanted to minimize that in case I the timing wrong - it is really hard when you feel that terrible to wait.
So I took the 1mg. It smells and tastes awful - but price we pay, I guess. So I waited an hour. I didn't really feel much of anything. I think maybe I felt just slightly less edgy and yucky, but not significantly so. So I took another 1mg and waited an hour.
My question to you is how should I be feeling? I definitely don't feel worse - so I don't think I messed up on the waiting time, because he said it would just make the withdrawal symptoms even more nasty. That isn't the case. However, I don't think I feel perfectly normal... I still am a little edgy and achy and restless, though there is definite improvement.
Prior to this, at the very most in any given day I would take maybe 80 mg of oxy but that was not common- more commonly it was about 45-60 mg a day. And it has been maybe 2 and a half to 3 months and I was taking it every day. I think that is why I am nervous about this new drug and don't want to take that whole strip - because the higher the does I am on the longer this will be, right? I don't want a lifelong/long term habit, and also (though I am no expert) I don't think less than three months of an addiction should mean years of treatment. But maybe I am naive or ignorant.
I just have no idea what to expect. The doc wasn't helpful. He didn't ask about what I was taking or how much or how long, etc. He wasn't even interested in why I had taken it and assumed it was just for kicks and was uninterested in discussing the pain that made me turn to this in the first place. He didn't talk with me about any of this. He tested my urine and then he scolded me about oxy, told me how he hates it, how it ruins everyone's life, etc, and talked not at all about how treatment would work, or what I should expect, or how long it will take before I am ok again.
So should I just wait? Should I call the doctor? Should I take more? Did I do this wrong? IS my reaction at the moment normal? Does it help with pain at all? How are you supposed to feel on this medicine? Has anyone used this successfully and if so, how long should I expect I will need to take it?
Thanks in advance for any advice and your time in reading my post!
