WillPower23
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- Feb 25, 2018
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A few years ago I met the girl of my dreams and we very soon had a baby. Ever since our son my partner has made me out to be the enemy and was totally convinced I wanted to run away with our child. Nothing was further from the truth I wanted my family more than anything and saw me and my ex as life partners.From internet research these are typical symptoms of pnd, I wish doctors and midwives advised expectant mothers to possibly expect these feeling and maybe then couples with new babies may stand more of a chance of staying together. Anyway she dumped me in August 2016 and has stopped me seeing my son, the last time I saw him was last April. I've always dabbled with opiates, street heroin, pills etc. My break up hit me and is still hitting me hard and I'm in extreme emotional pain for the first time I've heavily leant on Heroin as an emotional crutch and I admit it has a hold on me properly. I didn't care it took the pain away and that was all that mattered, short term relief from my situation in the biggest stupour I could achieve. Since the break up my heroin use has increased from half a gram to an eighth of an ounce a day. I can't remember the last time I woke up and didn't smoke H straight away. It's taking it's toll on my chest, I struggle to smoke the first bag of the day, as soon as the smoke hits my lungs I get an uncontrollable tickle cough. Training myself to hold back coughs to keep the smoke in can't be healthy. I have to smoke quarter of a line at a time alternated with coughing up clear, sticky, mucous from deep in my lungs. Also lately going for a shit has become such a traumatic experience that I dread going every morning. Rock hard rabit droppings welded together that are so dense they won't give and have to be forced past my poor sphincter often causing excruciating pain and bleeding. I have recently improved matters this with prune juice and laxatives taken before bed. Anyway from being in a position to smoke 21 grams of st heroin every 7 days that source is no more and I am suddenly forced to get by on st gear 5-8 10 bags a day. I'm sick of it all now it's a ball and chain I don't need. I want to do a diy detox and the options I have are.... I have 16 Lyrica 300mg and have been reading online a rattle on these is a breeze 300-600mg a day for a week.I've tried 300mg before on day one and two and was to wrecked to notice withdrawl, my main worry is how many days on the trot will lyrica effectively mask withdrawl before I develop tolerance to them? I also have 120 30 mg dhc I could try 15 twice a day for day 1 then 14 twice a day on day 2 and so on. In both cases I would be using temazepam and diazepam at night to aid sleep of hopefully mogodon and zanax if I can get some. Does anyone think this is a plan or can anyone offer alternative advice? I just want to be comfortable as possible... Thanks for your time and I look forward to your replies.. Peace out