Junglabungla42
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- Dec 12, 2021
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Hey there first time poster (long time lurker 5-10 years), and I'm finally at a point where I'm worried about my k addiction to the point of irrevisible physical damage that I need to kick it for good. My mental health is degrading alongside it, I'm tired of seeing my friends hurting themselves or dying which feeds the addiction more.
I was a heavy drinker (litre of spirits a day) for a good couple years and after a stint in rehab have been sober from alcohol for about two years now, but unfortunately after leaving rehab (and being prescribed ritalin for undiagnosed ADD) my party drug use picked up.
Within the time since rehab I've had a stint with alprolozam and managed to get off that after a long taper (only to recently get back on 10mg of Diaz a day), and use cocaine and other drugs relatively frequently.
The real problem here is ketamine, after quitting my job and getting into shady stuff I've managed to smash through a couple of grams to 3 grams a day in my bad weeks, and have experienced bad k cramps kidney pains and so on so forth. I've had friends who are still suffering from their past k addictions, and other than removing myself from being able to access the drug (which is a short term fix when I work within a city), does anyone have any advice for overcoming psychological addiction?
For me ketamine does a few things, it offers the ability not to think, relatively strong antidepressant effects and more recently with heavy use, the ability to get stuff done when I'm unable to thanks to the chasing of the high. Sniffing a 300-500mg line nowadays barely touches me, and simply becomes a way of reducing my anxiety and depression for the day.
I recieve therapy, and when routined have found excercise very helpful as has diet and so on, but this has only reduced my use not cut it completely. Hobbies also help as does socialisation etc etc. The kicker here is the ketamine lethergy as does SAD prevent me from regular excercise and doing the above.
My plan so far is
- Move cities (not that k won't be available) and start going back to support groups.
- Try step into a fulfilling job to take up time and give structure and routine for my life along with excercise. Also a new household and area that isn't full of addicts.
-Continue with therapy and self work and not get tricked to use drugs when I'm feeling 'better'. Maybe start meditation.
-Surround by friends who don't use (my life back home is surrounded by friends who deal or use heavily making it too easy to be sucked in.)
-Try to deal with existing damage with supplements healthy diet lots of water etc.
-Taper down on benzos to nothing (I don't find diaz that psychologically addicting, I hate how tired it makes me and often l feel like it contributes to the 'fuck it' of using.)
Sorry if this post is coming off somewhat ranting, my partner is sick of my use as am I, and I'm sick of being prevented from achieving my life goals for such a tempory fix. Feels like it's back to the drawing board with booze yet again.
Advice for ketamine harm reduction is out there, but there isn't really a lot addressing the psychological after effects of detoxification people often have.
TLDR: advice for dealing with psychological effects of coming off ketamine (and other drugs).
I was a heavy drinker (litre of spirits a day) for a good couple years and after a stint in rehab have been sober from alcohol for about two years now, but unfortunately after leaving rehab (and being prescribed ritalin for undiagnosed ADD) my party drug use picked up.
Within the time since rehab I've had a stint with alprolozam and managed to get off that after a long taper (only to recently get back on 10mg of Diaz a day), and use cocaine and other drugs relatively frequently.
The real problem here is ketamine, after quitting my job and getting into shady stuff I've managed to smash through a couple of grams to 3 grams a day in my bad weeks, and have experienced bad k cramps kidney pains and so on so forth. I've had friends who are still suffering from their past k addictions, and other than removing myself from being able to access the drug (which is a short term fix when I work within a city), does anyone have any advice for overcoming psychological addiction?
For me ketamine does a few things, it offers the ability not to think, relatively strong antidepressant effects and more recently with heavy use, the ability to get stuff done when I'm unable to thanks to the chasing of the high. Sniffing a 300-500mg line nowadays barely touches me, and simply becomes a way of reducing my anxiety and depression for the day.
I recieve therapy, and when routined have found excercise very helpful as has diet and so on, but this has only reduced my use not cut it completely. Hobbies also help as does socialisation etc etc. The kicker here is the ketamine lethergy as does SAD prevent me from regular excercise and doing the above.
My plan so far is
- Move cities (not that k won't be available) and start going back to support groups.
- Try step into a fulfilling job to take up time and give structure and routine for my life along with excercise. Also a new household and area that isn't full of addicts.
-Continue with therapy and self work and not get tricked to use drugs when I'm feeling 'better'. Maybe start meditation.
-Surround by friends who don't use (my life back home is surrounded by friends who deal or use heavily making it too easy to be sucked in.)
-Try to deal with existing damage with supplements healthy diet lots of water etc.
-Taper down on benzos to nothing (I don't find diaz that psychologically addicting, I hate how tired it makes me and often l feel like it contributes to the 'fuck it' of using.)
Sorry if this post is coming off somewhat ranting, my partner is sick of my use as am I, and I'm sick of being prevented from achieving my life goals for such a tempory fix. Feels like it's back to the drawing board with booze yet again.
Advice for ketamine harm reduction is out there, but there isn't really a lot addressing the psychological after effects of detoxification people often have.
TLDR: advice for dealing with psychological effects of coming off ketamine (and other drugs).