oatmilk
Greenlighter
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- Jul 6, 2021
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okay so i spent 6 months in treatment last year and got out in early december. it was a actually a great experience and i really thought i’d be able to stay clean when i got out buuuut i ended up relapsing on january 4th and started using 60mg of oxy a day. it’s not nearly as bad as my habit was before treatment so i’m trying to stop now before it gets bad again. since last saturday i’ve been able to taper myself down to 20mg a day but the mental stuff is kicking my ass. the anxiety, depression, insomnia, and irritability have always been the hardest part for me. like i’ve hardly left my room at all for the past week and it’s hard to even want to be alive
anyways i bought this big bag of kratom (red maeng da) capsules from my local smoke shop cause i’ve read that it can help with the withdrawal and i know there’s been threads about this on here before but i can’t find any that really tell me if the kratom will help with those specific symptoms. i’ve also read that lyrica can help and i do have access to that. i don’t have access to any of my mental health meds cause i’ve been avoiding my doctor (she’s a close family friend and will def know that i’ve relapsed). so i guess i’m just asking for any advice on where to go from here. do i continue tapering down? or just make the jump and switch to kratom? will it or anything else help with the mental stuff?
i feel so much shame, i can’t go back to rehab my parents have tried so hard to help me and i just can’t let them down again..
sorry this is so wordy i’m not sure which details are helpful or relevant
also double sorry if this is in the wrong thread, i barely know how to use this website
anyways i bought this big bag of kratom (red maeng da) capsules from my local smoke shop cause i’ve read that it can help with the withdrawal and i know there’s been threads about this on here before but i can’t find any that really tell me if the kratom will help with those specific symptoms. i’ve also read that lyrica can help and i do have access to that. i don’t have access to any of my mental health meds cause i’ve been avoiding my doctor (she’s a close family friend and will def know that i’ve relapsed). so i guess i’m just asking for any advice on where to go from here. do i continue tapering down? or just make the jump and switch to kratom? will it or anything else help with the mental stuff?
i feel so much shame, i can’t go back to rehab my parents have tried so hard to help me and i just can’t let them down again..
sorry this is so wordy i’m not sure which details are helpful or relevant
also double sorry if this is in the wrong thread, i barely know how to use this website