InfiniteInteger
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jul 19, 2016
- Messages
- 7
A little about my history....
-the usual teen binge drinking developed into everyday alcohol dependency
-stimulants lowered my alcohol intake but quickly took over in the same way as alcohol
-I suffered in the depths of stimulant, alcohol and bento addictions
-I eventually ended up in the psychiatric ward, narrowly lost my freedom and my life several times
I managed to find my way onto a recovery programme (12step) and had been doing very well.
My self worth and confidence was on the floor, and I was severely depressed and the benzo withdrawals left me gripped in a paranoid and INTENSE fear that lasted every waking moment for 6 months before tapering off.
I am doing well, I do not drink and take any stimulants. I have however recently turned to benzo's again. Not making excuses but I have some deep troubles and am not far enough in recovery to overcome them without the slight relief of occasional benzo use.
I used to use 280 mg a day, every day. I now perhaps use 40mg three times per week, and this has helped massively with anxiety, I have even been much more positive and pro-active. From past experience however I am mindful of the fact that this may very likely lead back to full addiction. I am after advice in regards to RESPONSIBLE continued use of benzo's.
Hence joining this community for advice and support. Any thoughts, comments, recommendations and advice for me from the community here reading this post would be most appreciated.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story. I am glad to be here.
InfiniteInteger
-the usual teen binge drinking developed into everyday alcohol dependency
-stimulants lowered my alcohol intake but quickly took over in the same way as alcohol
-I suffered in the depths of stimulant, alcohol and bento addictions
-I eventually ended up in the psychiatric ward, narrowly lost my freedom and my life several times
I managed to find my way onto a recovery programme (12step) and had been doing very well.
My self worth and confidence was on the floor, and I was severely depressed and the benzo withdrawals left me gripped in a paranoid and INTENSE fear that lasted every waking moment for 6 months before tapering off.
I am doing well, I do not drink and take any stimulants. I have however recently turned to benzo's again. Not making excuses but I have some deep troubles and am not far enough in recovery to overcome them without the slight relief of occasional benzo use.
I used to use 280 mg a day, every day. I now perhaps use 40mg three times per week, and this has helped massively with anxiety, I have even been much more positive and pro-active. From past experience however I am mindful of the fact that this may very likely lead back to full addiction. I am after advice in regards to RESPONSIBLE continued use of benzo's.
Hence joining this community for advice and support. Any thoughts, comments, recommendations and advice for me from the community here reading this post would be most appreciated.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story. I am glad to be here.
InfiniteInteger