Did a binge a couple weeks ago... For a week.. I learned that alot of Adderall was wasted in process, as a smaller dose does more than a larger one. I was stoked about going back down to 167lbs., after eating whatever, whenever the previous few weeks. I believe maybe 10lbs. lost over the week. Learned that being sociable was not such a bad thing, and tried to be open to conversation and chat. Severe Social Anxieties btw. Had a pretty descent week, but after that week was over, last Tuesday night was my last dose, I slept like a baby until maybe last night.
I have been in a pretty down mood, kinda like a mid life questioning. Not enough to be a crisis. Done alot of thinking about goals, and wants for myself. I came to some conclusions, and decided the present is best left as is for the meantime, but the future is wide open. Until then I stay put. Seeing how I was over all the thinking, well to be frank, burnt out thinking about it all, I just slipped into a typical, for me, withdrawn, isolated state of mind, and camped out in my room, and slept 10+ hrs at night, plus a 2 hour nap in the mid afternoon. So point being, I skipped my Adderall doses, as I wanted to just be numb to everything, and not think, or anything, but sleep. Today I woke up, talked to an old friend, about all the above issues, and felt better about life, and rejoining the living world.
So as 10 am approached, and work was finished really early, I go to take my daily dose, and realize there are 6 capsules that I had extra, the missed doses. I proceed to double up and take 60mg. Well my mood elevated, I have been on social media all day, chatting and having good conversations, writing novels in every text, message, post, or what have you! I spent some time with nieces, playing PacMan and Duck Hunt, and even took my 2yr old niece out for a wagon ride. I did the same for my evening dose a couple hours ago, and I still feel like I am on cloud 9.
So I now see that taking a break as well was much needed, to let all the previous weeks chemicals clear out. Or so I hope they did. I seem to be back where I was before the binge, with smaller doses, and much better results. Another thing I decided, was enough is enough, and the last dose was the last of this days festivities. I want to avoid higher tollerances, and have some normalcy back in my day when I wake up tomorrow. That also means no doubling up tomorrow. Gotta keep things fun for the future, and limit the good times, to keep them as good as today, and to also not do damage to myself while going on a week, or even 2-3 day binge. Gotta stick to it. Maybe next weekend I may revisit the notion, as there are still 4 extras, and I put them aside for future use.
I will never tell anyone what they should or must do. From my many, many, many experiences with different substances, well that would be hypocritical of me. I will offer suggestions from my personal experiences, even though all of us have different body chemistries, to maybe help somebody steer clear of a disaster in the making. I just wouldn't suggest a weeklong binge, to anyone, myself included, after doing it recently, and while fresh in my mind. Moderation is what I am taking with me from my experience, as well as gaining knowledge, and even asking for advise or suggestions. All is well that ends well. Keep on keeping on.