Nightlites
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- Jul 28, 2006
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Ok so my benzo history is spotty before this year. Run throught 3-4 bars a day then run out of the 90 i had n cold turkey before i even knew what withdrawls felt like. Ive done this a few times lasting at most a month at a time.
This current run: i started eating a few bars here n there with my ex. Eventually that turned into 2 - 3 bars a day ( 4-6mg xanax) then i got fed up with her and my usage so i went into a detox (i was also heavily using meth at the time) and slept for 2 days straight then left. I abstained from any benzos for a week or 2 n got tired of the insomnia so i started taking .25 mg xanax once every 24 hours to be able to sleep/fend off withdrawls. (Stupid i know.) This dosage went on about 2 months. The initial binge went on about 3-4 months. So about a month ago i got off heroin and back onto subutex. Im on 4mg subutex atm. When i switched to sub i started taking xans again recreationaly/for withdrawls. So after only taking .25 every 24 hours for 2 months im now taking 3mg a day now and have been doing so for about a month.
I just moved and my connections are GONE. These were from the street not a dr. I have 14 mg xanax left right now.
I dont know where to go from here. I want off them completly. But i know im playing with fire in doing so cold turkey.
My subutex doc is rxing me .25mg but only 5 pills for a 7 day week so not a daily dose.
When i kicked last time it honestly wasnt that bad imo :/? No panic attacks basicly slept through it because i was up 6 days straight then crashed from meth so i slept the first 48 hours litteraly.
Idk how bad my wds will be this time but i have read up a lot on them so i think im psycing myself out just as i have before with opiate withdrawls making them worse in my head.
My plan was to order some etizolam but it is outlawed in my state.
Thinking of purchasing some phenibut, maybe kava?
I dont know where to go from here. I will be telling my doctor when i talk to him about possibly getting onto a valium taper.
That will be next week i might run out before i see him and idk what he will do if i tell my suboxone dr that ive been poppin bars while hes scripting me subs.
I WILL GOTO THE E.R. IF ALL ELSE FAILS.
Are there any rc's i could use to taper down my dose with at home without dr intervention? Etizolam unfortunatly is banned in TX.
Will phenibut help much?
I have a few 300mg gabapentin on hand
I have a bunch of CBDs (vape and edibles)
I really wanna do this but im scared the withdrawls wont be easy like last time. As you can see in total its been less a year. Maybe 7 months daily use with the most recent being .25 a day to stop withdrswls except this last 3 to 4 week binge working up to 3 mg day where im at now.
Any help is appreciated. I love you all and ive been with bluelight for so long now you guys have helped me through so many things. Love yal!
This current run: i started eating a few bars here n there with my ex. Eventually that turned into 2 - 3 bars a day ( 4-6mg xanax) then i got fed up with her and my usage so i went into a detox (i was also heavily using meth at the time) and slept for 2 days straight then left. I abstained from any benzos for a week or 2 n got tired of the insomnia so i started taking .25 mg xanax once every 24 hours to be able to sleep/fend off withdrawls. (Stupid i know.) This dosage went on about 2 months. The initial binge went on about 3-4 months. So about a month ago i got off heroin and back onto subutex. Im on 4mg subutex atm. When i switched to sub i started taking xans again recreationaly/for withdrawls. So after only taking .25 every 24 hours for 2 months im now taking 3mg a day now and have been doing so for about a month.
I just moved and my connections are GONE. These were from the street not a dr. I have 14 mg xanax left right now.
I dont know where to go from here. I want off them completly. But i know im playing with fire in doing so cold turkey.
My subutex doc is rxing me .25mg but only 5 pills for a 7 day week so not a daily dose.
When i kicked last time it honestly wasnt that bad imo :/? No panic attacks basicly slept through it because i was up 6 days straight then crashed from meth so i slept the first 48 hours litteraly.
Idk how bad my wds will be this time but i have read up a lot on them so i think im psycing myself out just as i have before with opiate withdrawls making them worse in my head.
My plan was to order some etizolam but it is outlawed in my state.
Thinking of purchasing some phenibut, maybe kava?
I dont know where to go from here. I will be telling my doctor when i talk to him about possibly getting onto a valium taper.
That will be next week i might run out before i see him and idk what he will do if i tell my suboxone dr that ive been poppin bars while hes scripting me subs.
I WILL GOTO THE E.R. IF ALL ELSE FAILS.
Are there any rc's i could use to taper down my dose with at home without dr intervention? Etizolam unfortunatly is banned in TX.
Will phenibut help much?
I have a few 300mg gabapentin on hand
I have a bunch of CBDs (vape and edibles)
I really wanna do this but im scared the withdrawls wont be easy like last time. As you can see in total its been less a year. Maybe 7 months daily use with the most recent being .25 a day to stop withdrswls except this last 3 to 4 week binge working up to 3 mg day where im at now.
Any help is appreciated. I love you all and ive been with bluelight for so long now you guys have helped me through so many things. Love yal!