lovepsychadelics
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A true breakthrough, love is what we need and crave
Recently I was ... well I was high on 4 ho mipt but that is irrelevant. I was looking at a photo, a very old photo, of a beautiful woman I met and got to know and was intimate with while in Prague, a beautiful city. The smile, the happiness, the joy of life irrespective of any negative elements that were going on around us. Happiness, love. That is all I really want from life. That happiness I have chased for so long delved into a world of drugs chasing the elusiveness of that moment. All it ever provides is a window to look back and never be able to touch what you had. The young woman died in an MVA a few years later.
What my point is the following: I've been unhappy for so long through so many relationships. They want material things, they want money, they don't know what they want. The sadness keeps building up inside. Tonight, looking at that photo and remembering the exuberance and love of life, the excitement the joy of knowing someone, truly knowing someone hit me like a tonne of bricks and I fucking cried. No other lover has had that same sense of freedom and joy to just be and experience the moment with someone they love. Some of you may have kids and I imagine that is the unconditional joy and love they bring being somewhat like what I have been seeking for so long. Lost and alone among a sea of millions.
Spoke to my current partner and she feels the same. She was not high BTW. So perhaps I have found someone but she has baggage of her own. Perhaps it was being free of baggage and preconceptions of others ideals that made that encounter so fucking amazing. No drug can compare. The machine elves can shut the fuck up and get ground to dust as they are nothing compared to the emotion and the all encompassing realization that no matter how shitty the world is, no matter how much or how little money you have the smile of happiness from someone can change it all to meaningless dust. It doesn't matter my partner and I are going to work towards this goal giving up the drugs that mask reality or that enhance temporary euphoric states in return for depression. I'm not stopping all drugs just being far more selective about type, place, setting and our health.
Drugs off the list: Meth, MDMA, cannabis, LSD, NB (both LSD and NB are rather shit), heroin etc....
take from this what you will. Be safe, find true happiness and LOVE. Because deep down inside that is all we ever truly need.
Recently I was ... well I was high on 4 ho mipt but that is irrelevant. I was looking at a photo, a very old photo, of a beautiful woman I met and got to know and was intimate with while in Prague, a beautiful city. The smile, the happiness, the joy of life irrespective of any negative elements that were going on around us. Happiness, love. That is all I really want from life. That happiness I have chased for so long delved into a world of drugs chasing the elusiveness of that moment. All it ever provides is a window to look back and never be able to touch what you had. The young woman died in an MVA a few years later.
What my point is the following: I've been unhappy for so long through so many relationships. They want material things, they want money, they don't know what they want. The sadness keeps building up inside. Tonight, looking at that photo and remembering the exuberance and love of life, the excitement the joy of knowing someone, truly knowing someone hit me like a tonne of bricks and I fucking cried. No other lover has had that same sense of freedom and joy to just be and experience the moment with someone they love. Some of you may have kids and I imagine that is the unconditional joy and love they bring being somewhat like what I have been seeking for so long. Lost and alone among a sea of millions.
Spoke to my current partner and she feels the same. She was not high BTW. So perhaps I have found someone but she has baggage of her own. Perhaps it was being free of baggage and preconceptions of others ideals that made that encounter so fucking amazing. No drug can compare. The machine elves can shut the fuck up and get ground to dust as they are nothing compared to the emotion and the all encompassing realization that no matter how shitty the world is, no matter how much or how little money you have the smile of happiness from someone can change it all to meaningless dust. It doesn't matter my partner and I are going to work towards this goal giving up the drugs that mask reality or that enhance temporary euphoric states in return for depression. I'm not stopping all drugs just being far more selective about type, place, setting and our health.
Drugs off the list: Meth, MDMA, cannabis, LSD, NB (both LSD and NB are rather shit), heroin etc....
take from this what you will. Be safe, find true happiness and LOVE. Because deep down inside that is all we ever truly need.
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