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Greenlighter
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- Apr 12, 2018
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She?s 19. First tried heroin in June 2017 (when she was 18) as a result of a manic episode and her goal was to try heroin before she committed suicide. During her states of mania, she becomes very suicidal. She didn?t touch heroin again until October 2017 when she started dating the girl she first tried it with. They did it together about 3 times. She loved the high but didn?t find herself hooked right away and was able to put it down for another 2 months. Then another girl came back into her life and reintroduced heroin to her again. They did it together quite often. She found herself craving that high a lot more often so She found a way to get it. And started using it herself. She partially knew what she was getting herself into. She knew she could become addicted. But she told herself it?s fine because she was about to move out of the state and then she wouldn?t know anyone who could give it to her. She bought a half gram of h to bring to the state she was moving to for a last bang before she?d decide to finally quit. That half gram didn?t last long. She became desperate for more. I guess an addict can?t just move away from their addiction, because an addict can?t find their drug wherever they are. And so she did. She found a connect for heroin in her new state. Bought two grams, lasted her a week. It ran out. Now she?s 3 days clean. She can feel herself withdrawaling. Craving nothing but icecream and popscicles. Restless leg syndrome at night, no fucking sleep. Can?t seem to get her mind off heroin. It keeps calling her name. She moved to this new state for a fresh start, to chase her goals and dreams. She?s not completely dependent on heroin yet, but definitely on the verge of complete addiction. She knows if she goes and buys another sack, it will just get worse and worse. Her veins on her arms are already fucked up. She?s becoming suicidal. Overdosing on H and just dying seems like bliss to her...avoiding a lifetime of pain. What should she fucking do??! How can she get past this? She?s too young to be doing this and she knows it. How can she stay away from it. She wants to recover and be clean. Please help. Help.