Very valid point Prescottdavid. The problem I have with switching is (I don't really like to discuss this for several reasons) I'm part of a assistance program with zubsolv,and get my medication free. Short of the doctor's appointment (which is disgusting may I add) I don't even pay for the shipping. I'm very lucky.
With that being said, the pills are very tough to split even with a pill cutter. I have to be honest, when I split the pill anyway, half, quarter, whatever, there's no way I can be exactly sure of the milligram..and that's a pretty big deal. The adding liquid idea is genius, I will be trying that for sure.
I was going to just say thank you, and hit that "post quick reply" button, but no I am trying to change. So... I actually ended up taking more today... I'm rather bummed at myself atm. I really haven't been feeling well all day today, but I waited as long as I could before breaking down, and taking more to ease the stomach pain and nervousness. It did help, but damnit that's not the point...
I'm also really worried my girlfriend is going to not take me serious when she does find out how many I've taken, and how many I have left..
I'm going to worry about tomorrow, and I have a few days off coming up (3 days in a row), I think I'll try to dose down to 1, 5.7mg pill a day (currently taking 2... ridiculous). My girlfriend suggested putting all of my medication in her parents safe locked up, all of course a week's worth of so. I've never enjoyed someone controlling my meds, but also don't know how to stop myself sometimes. I'm really struggling with a lot of thoughts, mostly negative, pertaining to my relationship and where I call home.
Gonna try again tomorrow.. thank you all, as always. You're encouraging words mean a ton.