tommy..ive been doin my coppin for the next day, the night befoer recently and i like it alot better then coppin the next day when i plan to use..i used to like coppin the day of use cause by copping in the day its a good 1 1/2-2hours trip with traffic and i like it cause it gives me something to do instead of just sittingaround waiting to get high plus i used to not be able save it til the next day..but coppin the night before im starting to like cause my will power has got stronger the more times ive done it and so im not worried about doing it when i get back home that night, i can actually wait now but before i dreaded just sitting around all day waiting to get high but when i have it, ill just smoke a little to take the sick away and then ill smoke a little bud and watch a movie and i just chill, i still wait til 6pm to get high but its nicer not having to go cop and sit in traffic when your sick, i used to like it but now im starting not to
@epics.. the shitty part is to just rent a room in NYC is gonna cost you like 700-1000$/MONTH
Hey guys! Sorry I havent been around lol, been super high.
I started buying from a couple that sold me my first tar ever, they are pretty cool. Well they get really fire tar, it is so good it makes me puke sometimes, which is something thats never happened. The bag always wieghts and since tmr is my bday they gave me a free qt :D. Pretty sweet huh? Anyone else is DFW enjoying this new wave of very good boy?
god i wish i could try tar, i like the powder but its like you alwayts want what you cant have and tar is one thing we dont have here and its one thing i really really want
One of my good friends just passed away from a heroin OD just last night. He had been clean from dope for 3 years, then took some methadone, OD'd and they threw him in a psych ward overnight. Some type of suicide watch. They thought since he randomly (didn't know he was an addict already) took 80mg of 'done they ruled it attempted suicide. Not even 5 days later he OD'd at my dealers house. EMTs came but it was too late. I'm not totally convinced he did it on accident. But either way, RIP Michael S. You will be missed. This is probably better suited for blog material or something but I wanted to get this point across::
Please fellow team nod members..just be careful. Your next shot could be your last. He thought he was invincible. Just as I once did. And now he is gone.
In other news, I go back to Seattle on the 10th to celebrate my brothers 24th birthday. I will only be there one day and its my only chance to get dope. I feel terrible but...I'm going to have to miss half of his party (getting dope) then I'll probably get kicked out after an hour (for being on dope) he is pretty straight edge, he understands my addiction but just doesn't want to be apart of it or watch me sink deeper into it. But hey..only there for a day, gotta do what you gotta do I suppose.
Do any of you ever fuck up when it comes to family events? Do you ever feel bad? Like showing up hours late or high as shit? I remember once I was nodding so tough at thanksgiving I dropped my plate and it shattered. I was so embarrassed (not for myself, everyone knew I was a junkie, but for my mom..she actually cried)
about fucking up at family events, its funny you ask cause im about to do that big time sometimes in the next year..my moms about to get remarried sometimes in the next year and i dont fully support it, so i dont plan of really going to the reception and all that,they are getting married in the city i guess, so im just gonna go cop and go home and get high while everyone else is at the reception..i know it sounds shitty but i dont see the point for my mom to get remarried, shes almost 50 so its not like shes gonna have another kid, the guy shes marrying is no joke slow in the head, or just a complete pushover idiot.. the guy had been married twice before, do hes obviously not the best husband and has 4other kids, she makes twice as much as he does for a living and she always pays for everything when ever they or allof us go out, hell he drives her car when he runs his errands or goes and sees his kids and he even moved in with us,"cause his lease was up" the guy owes the IRS over 25k cause for somehow he "forgot" to pay taxes for a good 4-5years..so yeah thats just the short version, i can keep goin on
but back to you ...why even get high during the party? go cop and just wait til after, not only will it make your brother happy cause you showed your love and support but then you get the stisfaction of waiting those extra hours..when ever i do that i look at it like "hey i could have already done it and started to sober up, but instead im just starting the night off" and i always feel better i waited
and sorry to hear about your loss, im not trying to dicksize but i wish its only been 2 people ive known who have OD..if that was the case id prolly still care and be sad when i hear someone did OD..but with me being at somewhere aroundf 9-10, you dont even get sad anymore, you get mad..you get mad that people are still this carelss when it comes to dope, cause everyone who dies now knows at least 5otyher people themselves who have died..so its not like something people dont hear about or have in the back of they heads cause they do and yet they still procede to OD
what i want to know is how does he OD at your dealers place and the EMTs not get their fast enough to save him? shit better yet, how does your dealer not have narcan or hell even subs on him to try and save him? now i know my dealer doesnt have that shit but thats because hes a black dude from the hood and he doesnt use or allow people to use it in his presence, so its not like they will od in front of him..but iwould think a white dealer who uses himself and allows people to use in his house where he sells from, that he would have a small supply of it, just in case
