S-Dog
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Sep 26, 2017
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- 141
I don't know what to do or why anyone would give the smallest fuck but I'm at the lowest I've ever been and I'm terrified I'll only sink lowered.
My parents left me alone since i was 12. Every friend I've ever had has fucked me over. The only relationship I've ever had (13 years) decided his sexual freedom was more important. My therapist fucked me. I can't find a job. Everything I've put real time and effort into has blown up in my face. I'm 30 and have absolutely nothing to show for it. I’ve never even had a real job. Even the number of people i’ve had sex with is just two.
I feel completely worthless. I'm at the end of my rope and have no support system. I dumped 13 years of my life into someone who chose sex over me.
I have no self worth and I'm not convinced I can pull myself together this time.
The only place I can turn is two online friends and a drug forum. The only future I see for myself is loneliness and death.
This is all I have.
Please help. I'm sorry if this is too much but maybe one person knows what to say
My parents left me alone since i was 12. Every friend I've ever had has fucked me over. The only relationship I've ever had (13 years) decided his sexual freedom was more important. My therapist fucked me. I can't find a job. Everything I've put real time and effort into has blown up in my face. I'm 30 and have absolutely nothing to show for it. I’ve never even had a real job. Even the number of people i’ve had sex with is just two.
I feel completely worthless. I'm at the end of my rope and have no support system. I dumped 13 years of my life into someone who chose sex over me.
I have no self worth and I'm not convinced I can pull myself together this time.
The only place I can turn is two online friends and a drug forum. The only future I see for myself is loneliness and death.
This is all I have.
Please help. I'm sorry if this is too much but maybe one person knows what to say