I was 15 when I started dating my 14 year old live in girlfriend (Yeah, kinda young, I know...). We dated until I was 18. She cheated on me 4 times with a guy who was 23. She was 14, he was 23... you do the math. The final breakup that we had, the last time she cheated on me, was the first time I had done anything. I started off with pot. I had never even drank alcohol or smoked cigarettes. Immediately, I fell in love. I went from straight A's honors classes to failing school and being the oldest guy still in high school, trying to graduate but couldn't because I was too much of a dumbass to stay focused and not do drugs. I started doing more drugs, different drugs and much more often. I was getting so much pussy and partying. I was the town pimp. I was the pimp within an hour radius of my hometown. Wherever I went, I had so many girls, the money, everything. I knew how to get it, what to do to get it, and I was BALLIN'. I've always been able to make money multiply like rabbits. Anyways... When I turned 21, that's when I met my wife. We used to get messed up together all the time but she had my son. She stopped. I didn't. He's six months old on this day. I quit today though, and I want this more than anything. It took me 6 years to come to realize what I've learned today and this is what is keeping me clean.
Clean for one day... how pathetic. This battle... has worn me out.
One of my motivational quotes that I really like:
I Corinthians 10:12
"And so finally after many more months of work, all the sages came back to him, and they had come to a unanimous conclusion that the wisdom of the world could be put into a four-word sentence. They told the king that this sentence expresses much. It is chastening in the hour of pride and consoling in the depths of afflictions. And I've reflected on this sentence this week. The sentence of their wisdom was: "This too shall pass."