im god damn terrified as well, i finally after a year plus, with a bundle of obscure chronic pain diagnoses, i finally am scripted narcotics.
i hardly got by keeping my tolerance at two or three pods a day. i told the doc that 3 5mg percs should work. i tapered crudely from the pods for two weeks.
it takes 15mgs at a time to control the pain for maybe two hours. it seems to have more of an antidepressant effect, and makes it near impossible to sleep though. i went, on my own from 6 mg klonopin to one every 20 hours or so. but, ive been fucking that up waiting and taking two mgs several hours after my last dose to sleep.
suicide, that is an every day thought, this is too much pain, utterly complex, and ravishingly expensive with the necessary TNF pain blocker; humira, to prevent joint fusion.
now eating 9 percs a day is stupid, i ranted above, and im sure he is going to up, or switch me, as he have me 100 vicodine, then 60 percs with no refill, and a fallow up the day after they should run out...
im so confused, and dead serious.
i have a naturally low opioid tolerance, abusing heroin, morphine sulfate, and dilauded, i was stunned to see others dose level. 20-30mgs MS IV or insulflated, was good.
the MS had the same antidepressant effect, lasted a long while, and would put me to sleep.
this is all a question. i wish i could talk to one of you, and get some 'been there' feed back.
the oxycodone, is shit to me, an hour and a half, then back to hell. this is not manageable, nor bearable. im sucking my families savings (63% of families with a member who has an auto immune d/o are bankrupt in 6 years) and the stress is unlike anything thing they've known.
im scared if i mention the side effects, and that it merely brushes the pain, he will say, what do you want then...
logically, time released morphine.
some people hear the word morphine and imagine, idk what, but intimidated and stand off.
i grow medical marijuana, and haven't really smoked but sugar leafs all week. this certainly potenates, and then some. i want my future, i want my life back.
seronegative spondoapathy(carries a spectrum of bad bad symptoms), ankylosing spondylitis, bi lateral sacroilitis, pelvic sclerosis, remicaid induced dry pleurisy (9 months now), osteo arthritis, leukocytosis, anemia, etc.
humor me atleast, if you read this, what the hell would you say. the doc brought me in out of sympathy, and im afraid he is thinking ive got my hands full with this guy. idk how he would set up my appointment like he did with out planning on upping, switching, or seeing what i have to say, but the oxycodone is nothing... a 20 mg OC and 3 5mg vicodine, would do it, but im not going to dare mention OC, and the restlessness when trying to sleep would be too much i imagine.
i do not believe your pain increases with opioids, and ive proven to myself that i can find the threshold, and balance my tolerance around that. i could give a damn about the sniffles and a cough for a couple days, this knawing, progressive load of shit is what im worried about.
Edit: and now, im having an allergic reaction to the precocets; my throat is swelling above my adams apple, by my lymph glands....