i do appreciate yah not publically sharing really horrid crimes against people, youre cool
Just to be clear though, no crimes were committed. In fact, people were annoyed with my insistence on that. Being far from home on a foreign island with a complicated mission was already stressful enough, I did not want the additional headache of worrying about
any run-ins with the law. I do not appreciate your baseless allegation. The fact things went horridly wrong does not imply maliciousness, nor legal transgression, on my end, and there's no good reason for you to assume so. It's sheer ignorance, giving you the benefit of the doubt that's not maliciousness of intentional slander on
your end.
Edit: To be fair, I reckon you indeed didn't have ill intent as you end the sentence with "youre cool". Still, it's
not OK to shoehorn in a serious accusation with that. I do not want to talk about it because I feel deep shame I haven't been able to live up to the goals we had set, not because I'm trying to hide failure to comply with the local judicial system, or worse, with morals, universal ethics, or worst of all, because of having intentionally posed a threat to others.
Nor were people unintentional put in any actual physical danger, for that matter. The problem was failure to prevent consistent bad trips, with their terrible psychological complications. And moreover, this wasn't solely due to stupidly overestimating my own skills, it was also due to poor logistics on others' part, and their failure to correctly provide the necessary psychometrics, not taking my inquiries into their psychological make-up seriously enough to forgo providing answers trying to merely please the trip conductor. These weren't ignorant kids, there were full grownups. At fifty years of age you simply should know better. No doctor who's being lied to about their patient's medical history would be as unreasonable to hold themselves accountable for that either. I still regret I didn't see their stupidity coming, but I refuse to land the responsibility purely on myself, and I resent you publicly suggesting otherwise.
Let's love, live and learn together.