Hi all. I've been an addict my entire life. For the majority of the past 10 years i've been steady on suboxone, but have always told myself when i know i'm getting near death i wanted to go back to using. I got my life together, but if i dont have much of a life left to ruin i want to enjoy what little time i have left. A few months ago i was diagnosed with emphysema. It isnt terrible, but its getting progressively worse. I'm still on suboxone, i avg 6mg a day right now. I've noticed that the suboxone will often trigger some breathing difficulty, and thats what kinda piqued my interest. I was planning on tapering and starting to use occasionally, but i was curious if abusing opiates is going to be safe anymore? I mean obviously i know that abuse isnt safe to begin with, but i mean would abusing opiates with emphysema be WAY more deadly? I know that opiates are CNS depressants which is what causes most deaths in overdose because it basically just stops you from breathing. So now i'm terrified thinking if i were to take a handful of vicodin or methadone im just going to die...im even kinda afraid of taking the suboxone. I have been wrestling with my mortality for quite some time and i'm fucking terrified. I'm only 34, but my health is worse than most ppl i know in their 60s. I know my time left is short. I'd be SHOCKED if i make it to 40. If theres anyone out there with any first hand experience, or any helpful knowledge in general I would greatly appreciate it. This website has saved my life time and time again over the past 13 years, and I appreciate everyone on here. Thank you.