kushblowin
Bluelighter
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- Jul 12, 2021
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i just wanna hear stories from people who have done benzos regularly for 5-10+ years but even any daily prolonged use is good too but just what the hell does it feel to live 24/7 under a heavy heavy super strong hypnotic drug where even a tiny crumb can make anyone black out and lose control for days. i know you build up a tolerance but ive smoked weed non stop for 10 years straight and still cant even begin to wrap my head around living under the influence of benzos as your entire life. i would at least need some weed to make sure im not doing something stupid and kill off the benzos a little bit.
ive done benzos casually and didnt realize how strong they really are because i was always mixing it with alcohol to give an extra kick and i thought if i took a small small amount of benzos but drank beer or i would be able to control my dosage easier/safer but yeah i was already a drug addicted alcoholic idiot so that never worked.
it freaked me the fuck out the first time i took 1mg and i blacked out and was just a totally different person and didnt remember it and slept for 12 hours straight. even just taking the smallest dosages of xanax i can see what its doing to me and i still feel the effect for DAYS after. its amazing for my anxiety but my anxiety is so bad but im afraid of benzos i dont think ill ever be able to take a full bar in 7 years of doing them ive never taken anything bigger than 1.5mg at once but i have redosed over time getting higher doses.
i have to fuck know what it feels like to just live as an alternate version of yourself where you have no fear and just permanently grounded in reality but have no fear of it. is the tolerance really so strong that you taking 4mg is me like .25mg? have you had daily amnesia for years or is it just totally gone? i think about doing it all the time but i never do it. how do you not do stupid shit? how do you do benzos for 10 years and not get arrested?
the "auto pilot" just scares me too much
ive done benzos casually and didnt realize how strong they really are because i was always mixing it with alcohol to give an extra kick and i thought if i took a small small amount of benzos but drank beer or i would be able to control my dosage easier/safer but yeah i was already a drug addicted alcoholic idiot so that never worked.
it freaked me the fuck out the first time i took 1mg and i blacked out and was just a totally different person and didnt remember it and slept for 12 hours straight. even just taking the smallest dosages of xanax i can see what its doing to me and i still feel the effect for DAYS after. its amazing for my anxiety but my anxiety is so bad but im afraid of benzos i dont think ill ever be able to take a full bar in 7 years of doing them ive never taken anything bigger than 1.5mg at once but i have redosed over time getting higher doses.
i have to fuck know what it feels like to just live as an alternate version of yourself where you have no fear and just permanently grounded in reality but have no fear of it. is the tolerance really so strong that you taking 4mg is me like .25mg? have you had daily amnesia for years or is it just totally gone? i think about doing it all the time but i never do it. how do you not do stupid shit? how do you do benzos for 10 years and not get arrested?
the "auto pilot" just scares me too much